Hello everyone. ^^
About time I posted something here, no?
Unfortunately, I come here with bad news.. It is going to be quite a long post I think, so I don't blame you for not reading it.
However, I am alright, not sick, not stressed atm, thank you all for your worries and concern .. I really appreciate it * o*
So in short: I won't reopen the shop for another pretty long time.. read more below if you care about what drove me to this decision..
As you all know, I closed the shop/put it on hiatus, because I could no longer combine real life (school mostly) with gaia.. I know I promised to reopen in the summer holidays, come with a new limited, open for orders, finish an auction win.. None of that happened, I do realise that .. and I do feel guilty for that. I'm someone who hates to break promises, and so I find it very hard to leave this message for all of you ..
Anyways, the main reason for not reopening is that I don't have a decent artprogram.. not anymore. Little story: my mum left my dad last year to go and live with my grandma (because she could no longer live on her own). I, of course, stayed with my dad because I didn't feel like living with my grandma who, most of the time, didn't know what she was saying. With all due respect, I don't mean to say bad things about my gran, or about any old person for that matter, but you can imagine that it would be quite annoying for a 17-year-old to live with an 83-year-old, no? Back to the break-up..it wasn't a permanent one at first, mum was actually hoping my dad would put some efforts into trying to win her back and that things around the house would change. Sadly, dad didn't even try .. In June this year, my grandma got a spot in a retirement home, and my mum realized that dad obviously didn't really want her back.. The break-up became definite. I always knew that, if it would become definite, I would go and live with my mum.. so I did, we moved to an apartment. No, I am not telling you guys this to try and win your sympathy or try and make anyone feel sorry for me, to be quite honest, I never really suffered from the whole thing between mum and dad .. Why I am telling this then? Well, at my dad's place, I had a laptop and a regular computer. My artstuff was on the regular computer.. When I moved, I only took my laptop with me, because an apartment is small and I didn't have room for an oldschool computer .. So that is why I don't have a decent artprogram anymore. I tried to download crackversions, but as usual, that didn't go wel and my laptop was full of spam and virusses. I don't want to spend my money on buying a full version, because I'm saving for a new cell and my mum won't sponsor because she thinks it's just " a stupid hobby ".
Obviously, I could work with trials, but we all know trials are a big piece of sh*t, and after a while, you run out of trials and you can't just redownload them..
Also, since I have a boyfriend, real life has become much more important to me. As sad as it may seem, but I've gone up a few steps on the social ladder, therefor have more friends and go out more .. I also feel like I've "grown up", now I don't mean that gaia is for little kids, not at all! There are people here (way) older than me who really enjoy it, and some of them are very dear to me (Jadey e.g.) .. But everyone is different, and I've lost interest in gaia. Although I must admit, I'd start playing again just to make outfits with that ADORABLE pandaplush thingie.. But no artprogram = no shop, and gaia isn't gaia without my shop and friends there ..
This has all resulted into the fact that I now quit.. temporarely or for good, I can't say .. It is very possible that by the christmas holidays, my life will have changed again and I will really feel like coming back to gaia, because I do miss the place and the people from time to time .. But I can't tell yet.
Now I'd like to say something to Heartage, because I still own you 4 (if I'm correct) Toili's. As I pm'ed you a month ago, I was going to let you know if I couldn't make them.. and atm, it seems like I can't. I don't have an artprogram for now, and I won't come back to gaia for now either. Of course, I know I owe that to you and I want to make them for you, but I have no idea when I will have my artprogram back (if ever) and how long you are willing to wait for that. So by this I fully understand that you would want your AFK back, and I will give it back to you without any trouble.
To all my other friends on here like falling, jadey, pome, turtle, minari, ... I miss you guys, and I'm really sorry that I won't be able to join the fun in gaia with you anymore. If you still want to keep contact, you can add me on msn, just PM me (I will be checking replies to this topic and PM's for the next week) and I will send you my e-mail address. I hope all of you have been well and had lots of fun in summer already.
And thank you all so much for remembering my birthday! The notes on my profile and pm's felt really good, thank you all very much <33.
To all noobs, I won't be giving away my items .. I don't know if my decision is forever, as I said, I might come back, so I don't plan on giving away any items or gold, sorry.
Even though this post is HUGE I still feel like I've forgotten something .. might add stuff later.
So like I said, I will be checking replies on this and PM's for the next week, and will reply to them again.
I love you all,
<3, Emme.
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