100 Days of Art 2018 [~Day 100~] Read p.611

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[Leithern]

Kitteh Faye

k so this is gonna sound stupid probs but, like, there's a lot of fellow artist in this thread so I guess I'll make this mini rant/ question post thingy

Sometimes I'll go online and I'll look at artwork from other people, usually people I follow and admire, and something inside me just gets this really weird emotion. It's like I could feel fine but suddenly I feel something akin to anxiety and sadness but also odd determination washed out by resignation? Trying to put it into words is difficult.
I see the artwork and I want to be that good, I wish I could look at my own art and admire it like I do the art of others, I want people to love my art as much as the art I'm seeing, how popular it is, how polished it is, and part of me is like 'yes i'll get there someday' but another part is like 'I'll never be that good' and it's like I'm both determined to get there but also grieving and being resigned to the possible fact that I'll never be that good. And I just feel overwhelmed with my own inner struggle and sadness that I just want to sob and I get shakey and scared. I get angry at myself for not believing in myself but also angry that I expect to ever be that good. It's just such a contradicting overwhelming well of emotions.

Am I the only one that experiences this?

Oh man, same here though. I'll look at some epic art, then go back to my own profile and go, "Why can't I be that gooood!? ;~;"
Chii's right, though. It's best to compare your art to yourself, to look at your older work and see how far you've come. Rationally I know I should do this, but I still feel the way you do, quite often! It's hard not to compare yourself to others, but doing that can end up with you saying you'll never be that good... and then it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy.
Lol you should see the shitty drawings I put out when I first started dabbling with anime.

[Ako-sama]

ChiiDoLLx

I want my art to be as cute as yours! mad

.... Ava was like, "OMG AKO'S ART IS SOOOOO CUTE!"
Then it gets me pouting... I need to be as cute as Ako....

My art makes up for goodness in cuteness XD Thank you~ That means a looooot coming from a artist that is soooooooooooo good at doodling! emotion_kirakira I feel everyones personality can be seen in their art. And I have a very cuteish personality. XD Or so I've been told. XD

[Elyri]

Day # 18
Theme: X
Comments: Going to use my pass for January here; I won't be able to make the deadline tonight.

[III_of_Wands]

Kitteh Faye

k so this is gonna sound stupid probs but, like, there's a lot of fellow artist in this thread so I guess I'll make this mini rant/ question post thingy

Sometimes I'll go online and I'll look at artwork from other people, usually people I follow and admire, and something inside me just gets this really weird emotion. It's like I could feel fine but suddenly I feel something akin to anxiety and sadness but also odd determination washed out by resignation? Trying to put it into words is difficult.
I see the artwork and I want to be that good, I wish I could look at my own art and admire it like I do the art of others, I want people to love my art as much as the art I'm seeing, how popular it is, how polished it is, and part of me is like 'yes i'll get there someday' but another part is like 'I'll never be that good' and it's like I'm both determined to get there but also grieving and being resigned to the possible fact that I'll never be that good. And I just feel overwhelmed with my own inner struggle and sadness that I just want to sob and I get shakey and scared. I get angry at myself for not believing in myself but also angry that I expect to ever be that good. It's just such a contradicting overwhelming well of emotions.

Am I the only one that experiences this?

Hardly. The biggest problem I have with my own skill is that I expect the same results if I walk the same road those I've adored walked as well; It don't work like that. Ever. XD
Not for High school sports, College degrees (although I did fail to get the job I got a degree for. +1 to my parents), and it doesn't work for art. The Scientific Method can't be applied to art. Just practice. A lot of it. That and resources.

It sounds awful, but praising your own work may help. In the same way we have teens self-cyberbullying, you can justify your efforts by telling yourself (emails sent to yourself/texts/blogs/what have you) that you have improved, and that you are awesome. That you're going to be awesome-er. I've had to tell myself I'm motivated when I'm not, that my work isn't a complete failure, and that someone else out there loves my work in the same way someone loved the 'toilet in cement' moment with what's-his-face. heart emotion_brofist

[III_of_Wands]

I could worry about how much sleep I'm getting, but I keep going back to 'did my carrot/skirt' thing get better every year, cause I know I doodle it (every. year.), but I've looked through three sketchbooks now and I can't find a comparison for those deviantart memes (before/after). This may lead to Chii's much hated spider coming back for a improvement work challenge art. I only really had two pieces in mind for the next one.

[Freaque of Nature]

mythological irony

Day # 18
Theme: request



Comments: this is one of the darkest skin pallets I’ve ever worked with. So I hope he looks alright

[Ako-sama]

Day # 18
Theme: Witchsonas!



Comments: I'd be an earth type witch! biggrin I'd be suuuuuper tan cause I'd be outside all day every day! So much fun would be had! biggrin

[Alec Ikiiki]

Kitteh Faye

k so this is gonna sound stupid probs but, like, there's a lot of fellow artist in this thread so I guess I'll make this mini rant/ question post thingy

Sometimes I'll go online and I'll look at artwork from other people, usually people I follow and admire, and something inside me just gets this really weird emotion. It's like I could feel fine but suddenly I feel something akin to anxiety and sadness but also odd determination washed out by resignation? Trying to put it into words is difficult.
I see the artwork and I want to be that good, I wish I could look at my own art and admire it like I do the art of others, I want people to love my art as much as the art I'm seeing, how popular it is, how polished it is, and part of me is like 'yes i'll get there someday' but another part is like 'I'll never be that good' and it's like I'm both determined to get there but also grieving and being resigned to the possible fact that I'll never be that good. And I just feel overwhelmed with my own inner struggle and sadness that I just want to sob and I get shakey and scared. I get angry at myself for not believing in myself but also angry that I expect to ever be that good. It's just such a contradicting overwhelming well of emotions.

Am I the only one that experiences this?

gaia_nitemareleft gaia_diamond gaia_nitemareright

Don't wanna read the block of text? Look at the bold text. That's how I feel and what I do.


I believe most artists at some point in time have felt that way. It's like an apprentice looking up to a master and
yearning for the skills they have accumulated over their lifetime, but feel lost or overwhelmed because they KNOW
how much time and effort they will need to put into their studies to reach their master's level. There's happiness
at seeing the art, sadness that you can't compare, determination to get better, a sense of loss as you work your butt
off but can't seem to get better, and so many more emotions. I've felt like this before on so many occasions I've lost
count. Heck, I feel that way towards artists in this event. But it's mostly because they look at things from a different
perspective or they have years of experience in a different medium that I haven't tried or am not comfortable with.
When I begin to have negative emotions towards myself when looking at astounding art I pull my eyes away and
refuse to look at it or search for it. This lets me calm down and focus on what I can create. Later I'll look at art with
a pair of fresh eyes to search for inspiration. What did one artist do that you really liked? Why not try mimicking it?
The art is beautiful but the face seems off, why not do a face study so you can learn proportions and placement to figure
out what was off while also improving your own technique as well. References do wonders.

2006 is when I began to put forth more effort into drawing because it's when I received my first tablet. I participated
in freebie events and was surrounded by people with so much more skill than me that sometimes I'd be embarrassed
to post art. But I kept moving forward. My style evolved time and again. Looking back, I find a lot of stuff cringe
worthy. But then sometimes, if you keep working, without realizing it, you'll create a piece that will stop you in your
tracks a few days later. You'll look at it, analyze it, then ask yourself if you really drew it, because it's significantly
better than anything you feel you've created. But years later you'll wonder how such a piece made you elated but
you'll still be fond of it. This is such a piece for me. I kept looking at it for weeks wondering how I made it, but looking
back I can see the body is stiff, the face is flat, the eyes are too far apart, and there are too many things that are wrong
with it, but it still makes me happy. When you feel like that, it suddenly clicks that YES! You ARE improving! You just
have to keep going.

But, if you get too comfortable with a style and keep drawing only in that style, you're not likely to improve much at all
since you're not trying anything new or trying to learn something new. Honestly, I feel like I'm currently guilty of that.

Above all. DON'T COMPARE AGES!!!! Just because a 15 year old can draw better than an established 22 year old artist
doesn't mean the 22 year old is terrible at art. I and many others have struggled with this so if age ever pops up, throw
it out the window and forget about it.

[ChiiDoLLx]

Freaque of Nature

mythological irony

Day # 18
Theme: request



Comments: this is one of the darkest skin pallets I’ve ever worked with. So I hope he looks alright

I was just about to comment how that is one of the darkest palette I've seen you do!! ;O

[ChiiDoLLx]

ZyriFrost

This week killing me! So much stress and stuff to do gonk Slept badly..
Next week I will have some free time I hope... I know here is so many great art what I just havent seen yet *sigh* I start to peek you all art next week! wink And hopefully can do better art too...

GIVE US YOUR FREE TIME!! heart

[Alec Ikiiki]

Freaque of Nature

mythological irony

Day # 18
Theme: request



Comments: this is one of the darkest skin pallets I’ve ever worked with. So I hope he looks alright

gaia_nitemareleft gaia_diamond gaia_nitemareright

I remember drawing that character!!! The earrings were interesting to do, weren't they?

[ShadowOfFaye]

just making a note here that yes I read all the replies to me I'm just brain derping in replying back ><;

[ChiiDoLLx]

III_of_Wands

Hardly. The biggest problem I have with my own skill is that I expect the same results if I walk the same road those I've adored walked as well; It don't work like that. Ever. XD
Not for High school sports, College degrees (although I did fail to get the job I got a degree for. +1 to my parents), and it doesn't work for art. The Scientific Method can't be applied to art. Just practice. A lot of it. That and resources.

It sounds awful, but praising your own work may help. In the same way we have teens self-cyberbullying, you can justify your efforts by telling yourself (emails sent to yourself/texts/blogs/what have you) that you have improved, and that you are awesome. That you're going to be awesome-er. I've had to tell myself I'm motivated when I'm not, that my work isn't a complete failure, and that someone else out there loves my work in the same way someone loved the 'toilet in cement' moment with what's-his-face. heart emotion_brofist

Maybe this is the right time to mention that Shev and I just talked about you and we both love how creative you are with the themes -- you always surprise with what you make and it's never the convention route.

It's always a scene, not a single moment -- you give us a SCENE!!! ;O
And it's awesome~ heart

PS: I love that you finished Inktober with me~ mad props 4laugh
*won my heart*
Now please don't draw spiders, K? OUO

[mythological irony]

Freaque of Nature

mythological irony

Day # 18
Theme: request



Comments: this is one of the darkest skin pallets I’ve ever worked with. So I hope he looks alright

Oh my goodness, he looks amazing! emotion_drool
Thank you so much! XD

[Kikio-San]

Day # 18
Theme: Questioning



Comments: Riddle me this, Riddle me that. Who's scared of the big, black bat?