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The pain
The feel of your hand rapping around my neck
The thoughtlessness
The lack love
The absence of care
You decided to hurt me
With the sad pathetic excuse that you were frustrated
And that is all bull s**t
And sadly you believe the s**t you say

I wonder if you know that if you love someone,
The fact that no matter how far they pushed you
No matter the pain they dealt to you
You would never hurt them
Especially if you could help it
But once your hands grazed my neck in irritation
Once you cross the bounds that I had no idea
I had to set for you
You lost me

I guess that fact faded from your mind when you decided that
I wasn’t good enough to keep safe from your aggression.
Well to let you know
Touch me like that again
There is going to be hell to pay
I may deal with the s**t on the street
But I will not let people who claim to love me
Treat me with such disrespect
So stop calling me b***h
Sorry won’t cut it this time
Get down on your knees and beg for forgiveness though you don’t deserve it
I may give you a chance if and only if you understand that
You need to realize that
To comprehend that
Listen to me for a second because
I am a women that deserves your respect
Try choking me again
I’ll beat your a** and don’t you forget it
Lay your hands on me in anger again
You will realize that hell is like a vacation compared to me
I am a women that is worthy of praise so
Stop laying the b-i-t-c-h on me
And start calling me beautiful
b***h, b-e-a-utiful

So get your shallow
Closed-minded
Sadistic
Poor excuse of a man away from me
Because I deserve more than slips of frustration
And I don’t need to be called a b***h
When I can find a man who
Knows how to treat a woman


by april elkin