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I guess the easiest way to say this is I despise, hate and loathe my Father.

He is a lying, manipulative user of people an flirt ( he has been supposed by me alone to have flirted with 3 seperate woman all while being married "STILL" to my Mother. )

He is so much a lair that in my later teen years realized, if he lies this much...what about "Love You? or I Love You?."

How many lies have there been, he ignored / spent next to no time with me in my life up till after my High School year and Graduation. Even then it was to eat a meal out or something like that.

I rarely because of his lack of Adult ******** EMOTIONS, I neve want to be a Father I never desire to lead or be in charge of anything I feel I mean or meant little or nothing to him so in Life I feel I am nothing I feel unworthy an unneeded an unwanted.

If not for My Mother I would have killed myself in my teens. In ways she, her existence keeps me here on Earth. My Father better pray he's not still living an My Mother passes before he does.....