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rofl Summer was the season when i remember did crazy things rofl
what did i do that time?
- aim rank online games rofl
- not try to sleep much and keep play rofl
- when internet was not worked well at home then i plan to go to public cyber net cafe at midnight! rofl ( i was not afraid i got kidnapped or assault inside cafe with full of male opening porn site on their screen & the only female at that cafe was me and keep insist play like idiot till morning without think twice i was in wolf den rofl )
- all my hard work make people consider me into did activate BOT rofl what a sad story~ rofl

however no one know i was OVERTHINK that time. if you ask about what makes my mind mess up that time?
lot of think but has connected with reality... for example, April 2013 was that time I got myself try to calm myself about after got interview work and later accepted after June 2013. you can check my history here on GAIA FISHING about what was happen on APRIL 2013.

it is nice to get misunderstand by a lot people? definitely NO! but oh well rofl
this year SUMMER~ again I will do these once more what i did on 2008-2009 when i open up my mind about something~~~~~~~~~~~ 3nodding
IT'S BEEN A WHILE ? yes, although it was 15 years ago i did since i know what will happen if i TRY to change myself..... AGAIN 3nodding

FINAL NOTE just for myself :



- FAILURE is when you LOST you able to think to TRY again and again until you CRY, HURT, SICK OF ALL, but NO LOSE HOPE IN HEART then you get what you want or what you claim called WIN as PROOF. the FACT is you LEARN a lot here also you are PROUD of yourself and GRATITUDE by given chance to keep up.
AGAIN, what is pain is what make you grow. basically pain is not good. but be PROUD of the power of given chance to see IF you able to see FAILURE meaning YOU ABLE to see what you want behind the LOST case and learn how to FIX instead of you do not care and LET IT BE can be FIXED ALONE. rofl
HOW MANY OF OUR AMAZING ANCESTOR in the past GOT FAILURE EXPERIMENT before THEIR PRODUCT can be used until NOW for us? rofl
LEARN from them heart you will LOVE the FACT 3nodding



- REGRET is when you have ZERO chance regarding you decide to STOP from HURT without LEARN and back TO COMFORT ZONE and end up this with saying GIVE UP! UNABLE to REWIND BACK because NOTHING THERE to PROOF. NOTHING to LOSE, NOTHING to WIN also... pure LONE without WAY TO KNOW what is the TASTE of TRULY BLESS.
AGAIN, once you give up and make decision to move forward then never try to come back or step back cause REGRET will appear. Always try to MAKE SURE this is only as FINAL ANSWER for what is called END. it is just option when EVERYTHING TASTE BAD in YOUR MOUTH. why do regret sound really bad?
because REGRET more HURT than FAILURE.
so make sure this option is only chosen not because of SHORT TEMPER DECISION. always think TWICE or DOUBLE CHECK.
says again to yourself, IS IT GOOD CHOICE for LEAVE THESE ALL?
and without HARD FEELING, leave it at once!
AVOID REGRET at any cost when you feel unsure, why? you will never find the FACT about what is call BLESS.
When you receive good things, you will keep AWARE and you will never find GOOD things.
also this is same situation as when you feel everything easy to get from anywhere, this all will turn out to be SOUR and TASTELESS.
Dear Mighty Human, even you are rich in this world either your poor.... just remember... Happiness determine about how you learn from both side... Human to God..... Human to Human... Human to Lively things... Human to World....
not just from your side only... if only you think everything is easy in this world... you are just OBJECT of LUST.... Sadly....this is the FACT... and at this point mean YOU NEVER LEARN ANYTHING FROM REGRET STATE.
that is WHY they called what is the BEST SIN ever in these world? SEX, MONEY, FOOD, ALCOHOL, DRUGS, LUXURY BRAND, PRIDE, many more form that called OBJECT of LUST! heart
when REGRET coming to yours is when KARMA is working on you...


talk this much sound like i am clever person? NO xd I learn regret are way too hurt than failure recently 3nodding
however there is none for me to PROOF right now, but I know what will happen if I CHANGE because I witness that back the days on 2008 after I DID!

MY PLAN ? oh yeah this year 2023... I've got work again after quit from previous ones and smoothly before hit 1 month, they put me as MASCOT now! rofl
sound nice to get trusted and appreciated for now although this process way too fast to put me into MASCOT? sweatdrop
however to make this plan going more smoothly, i will make some change start from myself heart
so, just prepare overload CUTENESS from me rofl

I hope not much chaos this time like what i did on 2008 rofl
i remember got myself stalked by some opposite gender on the way i want to go home & got eyes from few same gender about me ROFL~
but business is business 3nodding
heart only for the only ONES~ sorry CHILD talk2hand burning_eyes please line up when the status announcement will OPEN again ninja
ahahahaha, do not worry~ this plan slowly go into nice process before 2023 ends rofl

but i will do my best 4laugh
in the end of these journal, may ALL LIVING THINGS in these WORLD find their HAPPINESS! heart
NAMASTE to you ALL heart