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...Now I have had the saints and patience
And I wait on the telephone
I have pills for this
Tabs for that
Something that used to resemble a soul...

It would seem that I can't really escape my nature.
Then again, I haven't exactly been trying.

Another bar, another late night, another injury, and more time spent licking my wounds. It's definitely a reoccurring pattern that I am caught perpetually in.
Even when I, myself, stop. Someone else drags me back in.
It's funny and a bit relieving that even when I'm as... "off" as I feel right now, I can still perform under duress.
It was for a friend this time -
That would be my justification to head once more into the fray.
He needed to confront someone near and dear to himself and I was to be there to make sure things didn't get out of hand... Or lend assistance when it did.
Negotiations broke down and I was caught in the crossfire of a few people who are entirely too brash for their own good. People who think that they are better than others for laying claim to something that wasn't really theirs to begin with.
I wouldn't say anyone won that night. It was a mostly pointless display of... I'm not even sure what.
Passion on my friends part, maybe? For me it was another case of nothing better to do and pointless, misdirected anger.
Pity too... It was the only bar in these parts that actually knew what a Rob Roy was and could make it decent to boot. I won't be showing my face there for a while.

Though I have told him time and again to leave this particular person he cherishes so much, alone. That this person was nothing but trouble, on top of being habitual liar.
But I can't even take my own advice when faced with a similar situation so I can't expect others to really follow this "Do as I say, not as I do." bit.

Partially related.
I have been in and out of a number of different hospitals and doctor's offices as I continue to chase down the cause of my symptoms.
I have regained my strength but the lethargy and head-fog remains... Now along with a searing pain in the left side of my neck, traveling it's length and into the shoulder and clavicle.
I have been prescribed a light muscle relaxant... Which makes staying awake even more of a chore than it was previously and things are suffering because of it.
At least the pain is down to a bearable level.
I feel like I'm sort of dredging along the bottom of the barrel at this point.
But I'm sure I'll manage, always do.