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I've returned to my past. I've begun to re-experience an old story that I used to cherish. I think all my old memories will be obliterated, but this story is too tantalizing to turn away from anymore. It's the story of Grandia 2. I had to work long, early, and exhausting hours this whole weekend... but it's over now, and I have all of tomorrow to myself. So, tonight, I woke up at 11:00 pm and began to watch TV... but, then, it got later, and became time to play Grandia. It just so happens that I left off at what may very well be my favorite part of the game. The team's airship crashes and they end up in an eerie, frozen forest. They make their way to a beautiful but creepy, illusory garden. They meet a mysterious little girl in the garden, and she says strange things to them before disappearing.
I always remembered this part of the game. Now I know why I loved it so much. And, now I'm so incredibly inspired, I'm planning all sorts of things... but, I had to stop playing Grandia, because I was inhumanly tired. Not anymore, though. I listened to a bunch of music... nothing but Mr. Bungle. Which, is among my favorite bands, and the creators of some of the best music I've ever heard. I've been delving around in some really, really dark and sick, twisted ideas lately... this is one of my most shaking inspirations of late. Mr. Bungle's "Dead Goon"... a song about a young, bullied boy, who is an asphyxiophile. He hangs himself.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=13uqg5RTAZ8

Hear the lead singer, in the part where he seems to be talking in the voice of the boy, when he's saying "This can't happen..." and his voice becomes distorted, as if he were struggling to breath. Then, the lyrics "Floating, floating, floating away..." while you can hear a wooden creaking. A body hanging from the ceiling? I think so. It makes my skin crawl, and sends shivers up my spine. It appeals to the darkest corners of my mind in the most amazing way... not that I am pleased by horrible things, like children hanging themselves. It's hard to explain... but if I can never create music as... amazing as this... then I'll have failed, and I'll never forgive myself.
I don't know how all of these dark subjects tie in together. But I hope they do. This is a great night... I wanted to put it in my journal so I won't ever forget.