Summer is rapidly coming to an end - and I CANNOT WAIT. Senior year, baby! I have been anticipating this for years and it's finally here. I never thought it'd actually happen. I have my senior pictures ready, my wonderful job is set for school, I have all my supplies and clothes (bought all by me!) and all I need is Tuesday! biggrin Good lord... Time for the real business! Basically, I have been imagining typing all this up for a while - I miss internet.. sad - I have a serious problem, it seems. It's not serious to you, but I have been fretting it for nights on end, well ever since Monday. Monday was the orientation for culinary, and with culinary comes Kody. This awful child who I've been crushing on for what seems like an endless year. I thought that maybe if I talked to other guys and tried to forget about him & it wouldn't be a problem. I was wrong. I began talking to this very sweet guy, not very funny or really my "type," but I gave it a try. I feel awful. He fell for me all while I was fantasizing another guy. And after I saw Kody at orientation, I just cut the other guy off. Completely. All together. No explanation. But I felt like I couldn't explain it to him that we couldn't ever really be together because I wasn't attracted to him, we had nothing in common, and he NEVER made me actually laugh. It all felt so... forced. :/ But now, all I can think of is telling Kody everything. From November until now, all that I've felt, thought, saw, dreamed... It's senior year, I thought. I should finally be open about this... Nope. I have the SMALLEST pair of balls in the entire world. I really want to, but I am so afraid he won't feel the same way, no matter how many times everyone told me other wise. :/ I just hope that once school starts, I'll be able to come clean about everything. Wish me luck! And if you can, give me some advice! I am so flustered about this. >.<
Doctor Gemini · Sat Aug 30, 2014 @ 07:30pm · 0 Comments |