Hey... I hope I don't cr- AND I DID. I JUST STARTED TEARING UP.
I feel like a loser right now! You probably wont read this!! I really miss our talks and our silliness. I miss you and I want you back. I am crying right now. omfg. I am such a lame-o. I don't know how to be your friend again.. It's been so long.....
Wow. My tears taste like nothing. They aren't even salty like tears are suppose to be. : (
I hope you still aren't cutting, and I hope you're at least a little happier now. I would only wish that you were happy. I am crying because I remember how much you cared for me... But whatever, right? I'm not important... I'm just mean and selfish. I am a terrible person, and I'm sorry for that! I really would do ANYTHING to go back to the way it was. I miss you so much, and I look at your blog and I think, "I bet she doesn't like me. I bet she won't like me anymore".... I just feel terrible.
I've lost all my friends in real life because all they did was use me, or make me sad. They ruined my life, and I wish you were there to talk to me.. I wish I could check on your journal and another would be there.. I wish SO HARD that we could have met each other in real life. oh my god. i«m crhing so much. I hope you don't hate me still. It's like, 8 in the morning. ugh. I have a headache now. I hope one day, you get on and check my journal... I need to update my profile and make it more, LESS JAPANESEY. Jfc I still remember the songs we shared. I have them downloaded, and when I hear them, I start to cry. I don't know why... Lynne is one that makes me remember you. It just sounds way different then other songs and I remember listening to it while we were friends. I really wish you would...... notice me.... senpai.... lol no
Ughh. I have so much news and stuff to tell you! i really wish you'd tlak to me! also, On your birthday, I wished you a happy birthday... on your phone the text messages. I did. And I never got a reply... How old are you, 16 now? You might be getting a car/license/job/something soon.. I got a car and a license... I quit my job though... I also might be moving to Dallas at the begining of my seniour year. It kind of sucks, BUT AT LEAST THE CONVENTIONS WILL BE CLOSER. HAHAHSSHA
I'm still a loser... And I still have those drawings of America and Germany and s**t. Like the ugly Germany ones. And the America and England sexy ones. I miss those sex games too. Haha.. Sighsssss
I wish we could become great friends like we use to. That is my only wish..
Dappou Rock · Mon Dec 30, 2013 @ 01:55pm · 2 Comments |