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The Spreading Exitement All Over the World with Emi Noerrac Journal!! YaY!
read if you dare...
worst idea i've ever come up with in a while...
pun not intended.

So. . . lately. . . for some unknown factor (whether that be excessive viewing of pron and hentai, excessively fapping, or lack of a physically apparent significant other) I have been finding it harder to get myself off . . .
[I'm also a little paranoid that at this rate, I'm becoming a nympho. . . but I'm probably just being paranoid...]
Main point is, I've been finding it more and more difficult to satisfy myself and I've tried different techniques and such but to no avail. . .
I began to think that perhaps the way I've been practicing all these years has been incorrect and perhaps I'm finally becoming more and more desensitized to same old same old...
I eventually came up (again pun not intended) with a theory that perhaps I could fix myself if I tried to remain abstinent from wanking for a while, so that I could begin to retrain myself from a different position 'cause I figured my posture's just screwed (once more, pun not intended) from my wanking so much all my life (I've been going at it prone since I first ever started which was probably back when I first knew the concept of a particular soap opera known as BnB)...
My goal was to wait at least 3 days before beginning to try and pleasure myself lying on my back, but. . .

I barely lasted more than 24 hours.

I mean, I know that in the past I have gone for up to a month or even 4+ weeks without touching myself in that manner... But I've been at it so much merely just in the past two weeks or so...
My mind just can't help but gravitate to thoughts regarding such things...
It just always feels like there's something missing...
I just feel so empty sometimes...
Perhaps this is just one of the only forms of self-gratification I'm comfortable with indulging in...
Although I do sometimes wish I weren't so lustful. . .





 
 
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