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I think its beutifull, twisted and wrong as it is. It is. When we look at each

other, I feel like the world stops, and although your with her. I know whare we all stand.

When you look at me from acros the the field at lunch. I and I look back. Were

together. We are in the middle of everyone showing what we feel, and for once I dont

care about all the stupid reasons holding us back.


She doesnt know or atleast I like to tell myself. Theres been occasions when I

walked by her we have crossed paths so many times before and each time she

lookes at me knowing something. Yet nothing, I can feel the tension in my vains the

air bruises away at them. I should feel guilty but, I dont. Why should I. You never

belonged to her. Only the tittle holds you together BF&GF. As far as I know I hold all

the rights. For three years I have. Of all the three years weve been together making

love with our eyes. and as you go from one to

another your still always with me.


Words and and hugs and kisses are nothing

compared to the glances we steel from one another.

Im happy and as much as it hurts you that I wont let you be with me, deep down I

know that you love it to because its exciting, and you love hiding it from her and all the

others as much as I do. Its so wrong,

but its right.

and

If she ever asks me, wich I know she will soon because I can feel it. I

wont deny a thing, and youll break up just like the others from last year and the year

before that and the cycle will continue just as always.

Were all victomes of dirty schemes were all liers without having to lie. But what can

we do? What can I do. I cant let you go and niether can you. So the world will just

have to deal with it.