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So....

Last night was rough... fay and I fought, well... I fought. I don't know what happened to her, but she still needs to learn I'm here for her.

Alot of things were said, things I don't like to hear. Lots of old stuff, but mostly how she talked, and acted, it wasn't fun. Reminded me of how the old fay would act; especially when she came over.. and didn't come near me. The old, daunting feeling of separation came back, to the night we broke up, and we argued in the same way.

I can't say I was too happy with the results of the fight... didn't seem like much was accomplished, though I feel alot less burdened, got to release some emotion. I don't remember how or when I fell asleep. We woke up in the morning... and she seemed so much happier. No more emptiness, and that giggle, I'll adore it forever.

The highlight of the night? Even when she was the way she was... she said "I'm afraid to lose you". That may be the only reason i grabbed her and held her.

I don't know, I feel like I overreacted. But I also feel that if I hadnt done so, we wouldn't have seen each other that night, and who knows what would have happened.

I never want to see emotionless fay again, period. Se shouldn't be that way; she's too... cute for that.

and I think i have a new friend... sandra. Nice to hang out with and talk with, seems like she cares. funniest when she's gagging. -shrug- I always like new meat amongst friends. And she's really accepting, and since I am the way I am... I need my friends to be that way.