Ok, so life is going by okay. I starting to get more stable with money which is good. My father is starting to send me money.. not sure why but I think him non the less. My friends were supposed to go to Vancouver but they cancelled. I was going to go with them for the ride to Vancouver while they went to some sort of festival on the 20th. I mentioned to them I wanted to go see this guy I like and they didn't object to me doing so. Over the weekend my friend told me they had cancelled the trip and made me sad. My friend told me she might be heading down there to look for a new vehicle and I would have to hang our with her the entire time. He is just as excited to see me as I am to see him. There is the underlinging that I know something is different then it was during last summer. He texted me, "can't wait make out," whic in the past we did more then that so does this mean things have changed. Haha that reminds me of the poem things I written on here. It was intend to him cause I just snapped. I want to be his boyfriend but he is not looking or wanting a releationship right now. So that leaves me with just being friends with benefits or just a friend. I am sure he has slept with many guys in the big city in the span of 8 months. I know I shouldn't be anger but I just am. I know I am not the best looking guy but to him I was or that was the illusion he gave me. All will be revealed in the next few weeks I guess. I will post again and maybe sooner this time. Have I mentions he is 10 yrs older then me...
light_daisuke · Mon Apr 12, 2010 @ 07:15pm · 0 Comments |