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Dark Heart

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HATE!!!!!! WHY THE ****** DO I TRY SO HARD TO MAKE PEOPLE LIKE ME? WHY DO I CARE ABOUT WHAT OTHERS THINK OF ME ANYWAY? I HATE MY LIFE I DON'T KNOW WHY I EVEN BOTHERED TRYING TO LIVE IT!!! I SHOULD JUST KILL MYSELF IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT TO SAVE BOTH MYSELF AND EVERYONE ELSE THE TROUBLE OF EVEN TRYING TO BOTHER WITH ME!! I MEAN WHAT DO I HAVE TO LIVE FOR NOW, NOTHING THATS WHAT!!!! I'M TIRED OF SMILING FOR NO REASON, LAUGHING WHEN I'M BLEEDING INSIDE, TELLING PEOPLE I'M OK WHEN I REALLY WANT TO JUST GIVE UP COMPLETELY. I'M CRYING BUT NO ONE CAN SEE MY TEARS. I HOPE THAT THE NEXT DAY IS BETTER BUT HOPE JUST WON'T HELP ME. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE I'M JUST MOMENTS AWAY FROM CUTTING MY NECK. I LOOK AT MYSELF AND ASK WHY I'M STILL ALIVE? WHAT THE HELL AM I HERE FOR? IF THIS IS HOW THE REST OF MY LIFE WILL BE LIKE THEN I'LL JUST KILL MYSELF, BECAUSE I DON'T NEED ANYMORE BULL-st TO DEAL WITH!!!!!!!

Posted by: Shadow-Mezato Sun Oct 05, 2008 @ 03:54am

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kamichama karin-san
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Mon Mar 02, 2009 @ 12:24am

I know what you are here for you are here to live a happy life biggrin
I know it may sound cheesy but its true don't live life in regret live in the present not in the past.You may think who the f**k are you to tell me this but i've also been like you well still am just a lil like you.I smile & laugh like crazy but its just a mask to hide what really inside.Each day i try and take off this mask little by little and i think its working smile You should try it 2 =)

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