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So I suppose I should start things off from the top

Thing one:

He rejected me

Flat out

No surprises there

It really didn't shock me

But it still hurt like hell

Thing two:

My laptop has for the third or fourth time [the fact that I've lost count now isn't a good sign, is it] has ceased to function and has resumed being an oversized paperweight in my bedroom

Thing three:

Only part of my refund has arrived, and I cant use it, as it's technically 80 dollars of it is Kim's and not mine, to be used to pay for her snakebites [rather than pay for my repiercing OR my hide dye job...irony at its finest, no?]

Thing four:

I've decided to ask out a store clerk at Sakuracon, whose name I dont know, and I've seen all of once, and whom I don't even know for a fact will be in attendance
I merely know he was hot

Thing five:

I've become comepletely bored with life in general and have lost all drive to do...anything
Everything seems hopeless, especially with my infamous luck
I've completely given up, and have begun ignoring my plastic surgeon's orders to drop weight before my surgery
i am now officially 60lbs overweight, and despite every attempt i HAVE made, i have lost NO weight, and have gained 5lbs...i could cry just thinking about that....

Thing six:

I've come to terms that i'll always be dancing by myself
not really with anyone
next to people, sure [no, with friends does not count on any planet]
but with an actual person....no
i'm actually very good at ballroom dancing alone sadly enough

Thing seven:

I'm bleaching out my hair entirely until i can afford to dye it like hide [hee-day]
the temp dye has almost entirely washed out and...i hate the way it looks right now...

thats it for now...i'm pretty unhappy...
i doubt i'll be happy anytime soon too
so...til later