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I have little tolerance for fools who seek to judge without understanding. I've always sought to understand something first, the ways I go about it may seem unorthodox, possibly even cruel at times but I have never disregarded someone till I can completely and fully say I understood their situation. Those who seek to defend others blindly then turn a critical eye on those who do the same out of promise rather than compulsion or obligation annoy me. What makes one so different from another. MY definition of neutral is keeping a fair and balanced cycle not putting down both sides. I take the weaker side and support it, whether or not you see it as weak is subjective. I'm tired of so many people claiming that to not take a side is cowardice, and then when the side I seem to have is not theirs they seek vengeance for imagined slights and try to turn simple gestures into altercations. Who has ever had the time for such people, but I will not abandon them. If they choose to do so to me, fine. When I claim one as my friend, they remain as such, no manner of slight or behaviour outside of our friendship will ever make me change my mind, and even then. I have an extremely high tolerance for those I care about, even if it comes to me at severe cost.

Never have I simply cut someone off and thrown them aside as unworthy of my time, my friendslist has never had anyone deleted from it. My MSN and AIM have no one blocked nor have I changed my name. The line for communication and understanding is always there. I've defended many people over the years, including some of those who now turn against me. But like I said, high tolerance. I am reconnecting with friends I've thought I lost and due to my nature finding that I did sorely miss them. My life is strange, a complex balance, yes, you may reject me, or hurt me, or attack me, but what you don't know is for some reason, the second you do this I always end up meeting someone who takes your place or will eventually do so if not more. I'm no longer affected by what others think of me or say, because in the end, I know who I am. Those who matter, those who really matter, can see who I am as well, and regardless of what they may hear or be forced to see in a certain light, they will care for me. To those that stuck around, I thank you for being true friends and showing me what it is to be cared for and live an online life of unbiased completely forgiving and accepting care and for lack of a better word joy. I may not be the best man I can be, but for you, I will always strive to be a better man, just give me a little time.