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Somehow, that vanilla sorbet dessert with expresso I indulged in last Sunday altered my senses. I became distinctly aware of this on Thursday, the Summer Solstice, after I slammed the side of my head into the open car door. Fortunately, I missed my temple by a smidgen. So I did not get knocked out but what a call to wake up! The incident sure made me realise that I had been asleep up until then.

I cannot even tell you how long I have been in zombie mode. My zen sittings last week revealed some complications in my understanding of events and even with that van rear-ending me last week, I could not put my finger on what was happening. Somehow, I managed to pull off practise in Aikido. Perhaps because it has been so bloody hot and training has been slow and extremely focussed.

Maybe that close call with sickness last weekend was expected to conjure up some appreciable attention to my state of being and execution of activities...

Having neglected all the previous warning signs, the alarms finally resounded on Friday and after Aikido class, I immediately set to put myself right. I did nothing spectactular but melt into the floor. That is, completely relax my body after sitting still for an extended bout of time to relax my mind.

Ready for rehabilitation, I went to bed early and found myself at Tai Ji class this morning. It was great to see Sifu again. He was actually pleased to see me. It had been a couple of months already! Practising in the park is fabulous.

I guess I felt really alive today. It has been awhile. It is quite a sensation.

I need to take especial care in drinking enough water though. What I reckon happened in the last few weeks to put me in such a true stupor was a combination of dehydration and exhaustion. Coffee keeps me awake and I did not sleep last Sunday. Staying up late that day, and the 3 days following, led to eating late which threw off my metabolism completely. So I was a wreck by Thursday which is when the car door helped me to figure out that I better do something different soon.

We will see what the summer reveals of my efforts.