Silly Annie
Brother Kam
My dream job is being a serial murderer.
Silly Annie
the heroin cravings never went away
its still eatin at me
No one will understand unless they've been there, it's a b***h aint it. One thing they teach in Narcotics Anonymous is that you're always going to be an addict, you just have to decide how much you want it to control your life and realize that over time it should get a weaker grip on your soul. Easier said than done.
Heroin changes you, your brain and how you think, and who you are as a person. Sometimes in a good way in that the horrible experience helps you become a stronger person but usually it's the opposite.
I never even started that s**t
got this ******** monkey put on my back an I never asked for it
why cant they make a new kinda heroin that dont kill you so I can jus shoot it up every day an jus be happy everyday
Yeah I know, people can be ******** up creatures sometimes. Rule #1, you never turn anyone out unless they're going to use no matter what anyways. If that's the case you just try to help them do it cleanly and safely. ******** people who do what you had done to you, they deserve to die in the most painful way possible.
There's suboxone and methadone treatment but that's more for people who are still heavy users who want off and I'm not sure what your situation is now, nor is it my business. I know what you mean though, I ******** can't stand needles but now just the thought of sticking myself with that makes my heart flutter. People that say "Well just stop." are the best.
Depending on where you live, commune stuff aside, you would qualify for medical and housing. There are clinics in most major cities like the methadone clinics that can help keep you out of withdrawal and help you get clean if you want to, with most of the clinics it's free for patients with Medical. If you ever need any help with this kind of thing, PM me. I know a lot about it.
And ********, medical grade heroin would be a hell of a thing wouldn't it? That's basically what they do for addicts in Amsterdam now. I've stopped doing IV s**t and my life is finally turning back around now, I never want to go back to who I was but I'll always crave it.
It makes everything go away, the problems, any sadness, all the bad. You just feel happy and warm and when you have nothing to live for and no one who cares, yeah it's incredible. It's never worth the withdrawals though. Good luck with your demon.