crystxl
(?)Community Member
- Posted: Sun, 17 Aug 2014 15:09:08 +0000
i've been reading several threads before deciding to post
and i'm really encouraged(?) that i'm not the only one who really hates being
touched physically when I really don't want to be.
I know it may all sound like a seventeen year old girl's childish problems,
but i really hope that if you're willing to aid me in understanding myself better
that you would not think that my problem is insignificant because
it plays a big part in my life now.
i would like to ask of you to be nice and tactful with your comments,
because i'm actually really nervous about seeking public opinion.
sorry if my words didnt come out right, because im not all that good
in expressing my emotions in words.
( ive actually retyped this several times >< )
ive been attached for over a year now with a really nice guy.
but we got attached only because he's been interested in me
and because he 'rescued' me when i was in a difficult position.
at first, i didn't have much feelings, but of course feelings can
grow in time.
however, when i started school and he quit school to work full-time,
we drifted and i found myself really fantasizing about the lifestyle
that i used to have.
hanging out with friends till whenever and i know it sounds terrible,
but i wanted to experience the 'heart-throbbing' feeling of
seeing someone that i find attractive again.
i just want you to know that ive been faithful
and you could say that its the fear of losing something
so familiar in my life and also the fear that
he would be completely devastated.
and also the fear of never getting someone who would
love me as much as he would.
that's why i never thought about leaving this relationship behind.
but i just wanted to know, is it wrong to fantasize about what
kids my age could/should be doing?
am i making the right decision of possibly spending the rest
of my life with someone who gives me security but not that kind of
'falling in love again and again' kind of feeling?
and i'm really encouraged(?) that i'm not the only one who really hates being
touched physically when I really don't want to be.
I know it may all sound like a seventeen year old girl's childish problems,
but i really hope that if you're willing to aid me in understanding myself better
that you would not think that my problem is insignificant because
it plays a big part in my life now.
i would like to ask of you to be nice and tactful with your comments,
because i'm actually really nervous about seeking public opinion.
sorry if my words didnt come out right, because im not all that good
in expressing my emotions in words.
( ive actually retyped this several times >< )
ive been attached for over a year now with a really nice guy.
but we got attached only because he's been interested in me
and because he 'rescued' me when i was in a difficult position.
at first, i didn't have much feelings, but of course feelings can
grow in time.
however, when i started school and he quit school to work full-time,
we drifted and i found myself really fantasizing about the lifestyle
that i used to have.
hanging out with friends till whenever and i know it sounds terrible,
but i wanted to experience the 'heart-throbbing' feeling of
seeing someone that i find attractive again.
i just want you to know that ive been faithful
and you could say that its the fear of losing something
so familiar in my life and also the fear that
he would be completely devastated.
and also the fear of never getting someone who would
love me as much as he would.
that's why i never thought about leaving this relationship behind.
but i just wanted to know, is it wrong to fantasize about what
kids my age could/should be doing?
am i making the right decision of possibly spending the rest
of my life with someone who gives me security but not that kind of
'falling in love again and again' kind of feeling?