Dirty Little Secrets [Announcement 11/8/2023]

Before I go, I've got to know:

Is that what you mean to say?	29.3%	[ 747 ]
Before I rise to my defense,	5.0%	[ 127 ]
Before I speak in hurt or fear,	5.6%	[ 142 ]
Before I build that wall of words,	4.3%	[ 110 ]
Tell me: did I really hear?	10.2%	[ 260 ]
Words are windows, or they're walls,	9.8%	[ 250 ]
They sentence us, or set us free.	6.2%	[ 157 ]
When I speak and when I hear,	2.9%	[ 75 ]
Let the love light shine through me.	26.8%	[ 684 ]
Total Votes:			[ 2552 ]

[VermiIion]

Yeah, there is no feelings for me is there. So much for feeling special and happy with the good night thing.
Or your semi-daily snaps, right. I'm a ******** dumbass, gg linda.

I wish I hadn't been ghetto when I was younger. Cause then I wouldn't have met these ghetto a** people on my facebook.
They never changed. With their hypocritical statuses and s**t. Annoying as ********. Good thing I barely go on facebook anymore. Wooo

Is it time for me to take a break from gaia? Not entirely sure. Most of my friends that I talk to daily aren't on anymore.
Either that or they are on league or skype. I have to admit though, I barely talk to those people too.
The feels I have with gaia aren't there anymore but I have the habit of going on it whenever I open chrome.
I barely have anything to do on the internet anymore besides league, plus I like dressing my avatar up. lol

I really want this b***h to post the god damn video up on youtube so I can watch it. It is really getting me anxious.
She did such a good job and I wanna see how I could get that way. I want that perfect body that I can flaunt every summer and s**t.

Nick says that he is 100%, and I emphasize on 100%, sure that he can call me tomorrow. Just watch he ends up waking up late and not able to call. I am calling it right here and right now.
I wish I can bet someone about this, it'd be a lot more fun.

I NEED ******** FRIENDS.

[VermiIion]

I want to feel special.
Please someone make me feel special.

[VermiIion]

[******** it. Gonna league my sorrows away.

[VermiIion]

lol jk, gonna do the stupid dishes.

[smile into the chaos]

__● ● ● I'm more of a мαn than you'll ever be ...

__... αnd more of a woмαn thαn you'll ever get.

______ That's it. I've decided that for the last week that I'm living here, I'm going to be extremely ******** obnoxious every time I hear them having sex upstairs.
Which means blasting porn and doing anything I can to kill the mood.

[Briethell]

● ★ ● ★ ●x ➔
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx❝ I want to whisper privately to you the secret that I have hidden....
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx I will always stay with you and look after you from behind. ❞

╔══ •♔• ════════════════════╗

My moods are uncontrollable this month.
It just keeps getting worse.

╚════════════════════ •♔• ══╝

[Briethell]

I really wish I had more than 30 hours in PTO right now, because I could use a small vacation to sort some stuff out.

I have started to sort out some of this mess, I scheduled my eye appointment, and the crotch doctor appointment. Which, the latter is one of the more pressing matters on the plate at the moment. I'm in so much pain it's miserable and I don't want to do a damned thing. My work ethic is on a steady decline and I just have no motivation to pick it up. I'm worrying myself sick and I'm probably going to stay like that until my appointment in August.

I still need to schedule a dentist appointment for my broken tooth, I need to figure out who I need to schedule an appointment with for my wrist that's been swollen and hard to maneuver for 4 months now, I need to get in with a psychiatrist, there is just so much I need to do but I can never seem to find the time for.

[smile into the chaos]

__● ● ● I'm more of a мαn than you'll ever be ...

__... αnd more of a woмαn thαn you'll ever get.

______ One thing that annoys me about the Drizzt graphic novels is how much they skip over. Especially the fight against the gnomes and the earth elemental.
Really takes away from Salvatore's descriptive writing and makes everything, especially the fights, seem so much less epic. On the flip side, it means I'll finally reach the part where Drizzt takes possession of Guenhwyvar just that much sooner.

[comme des enfants]

My fever is gone but I still don't know whether or not it's infected. I wish I didn't have hives all over it so I could get a better look.

[mewkittyy]

watching jeepers creepers before bed was a bad idea.

[smile into the chaos]

__● ● ● I'm more of a мαn than you'll ever be ...

__... αnd more of a woмαn thαn you'll ever get.

______ Noooooo! Not Zak! crying gonk scream

[Vestigia]

I am so deeply hurt by that action. I am finding it difficult to move forward from it, and on a daily basis it is occurring to me that perhaps this is a lost cause.
I do not wish it to be, however sometimes some things are for the best. I will continue to mull it over. Perhaps some clarity will be found in time. Until then, at least, I shall continue trying to forge reparations.

[Gypsosaurus]

Darnell texted me late last night.

"I can't sleep, and you're on my mind. I want you to know that what Travis did to you was wrong and unfathomable to anyone who knows you. He mistreated you not because you deserved it or weren't worthy of genuine love, but because of his own personal issues. It seems like that relationship meant a lot to you, and I imagine the betrayal is still raw and hard to process. I just hope you know through it all that you're an amazing person and you will find what you're looking for sooner than you expect. You'll be happy again, and you'll feel love again, and you'll trust again, too. Never sell yourself short, and never let how he behaved color your opinion of yourself. Also, I like you and look forward to seeing you."

Remind me why we both have to move again?
Wish I could stay with him.

Maybe I shouldn't have told him about how hard I'm struggling right now, but he's such an understanding, intelligent, kind-hearted man.
I knew it would be okay.

I've been thinking this over, all these words he said.
My heart really wants to believe that all of it is true, but my head tells me no.
Cognitive dissonance x235987329857.

Anyway, we're going to Ann Arbor together today for a day on the town.
There's some sort of art fair.
It should be fun.
And the peace that comes over me when I'm with him is so very satisfying.

[Misses Indie]

Still so much cleaning to get done.
The kitchen is at least almost finished.
The living room is also pretty much in order.
It's really the second bedroom to try and tackle.
Then put a load of laundry in, clean up the bathroom and do the floors.
But it's still so early and all I want to do is sleep.

[Madame_Fox]

i hate waking up .....
an within 15minutes you have me wanting to go off a die pathetically
holding in tears
feeling so worthless an just ugh
around you I hate myself,
I wanna melt an waste away in front of your eyes
so it haunts you of