Dirty Little Secrets [Announcement 11/8/2023| Reminder 2024]

Before I go, I've got to know:

Is that what you mean to say?	29.4%	[ 783 ]
Before I rise to my defense,	4.9%	[ 131 ]
Before I speak in hurt or fear,	5.6%	[ 150 ]
Before I build that wall of words,	4.3%	[ 114 ]
Tell me: did I really hear?	10.0%	[ 266 ]
Words are windows, or they're walls,	9.8%	[ 260 ]
They sentence us, or set us free.	6.2%	[ 166 ]
When I speak and when I hear,	3.0%	[ 79 ]
Let the love light shine through me.	26.8%	[ 713 ]
Total Votes:			[ 2662 ]

[rafe adler]

i hate when ppl ask what i've been up to because all i do is stay home
i'm boring af

[rafe adler]

i think i kept hanging out with c because i wanted to be social, but i didn't want to go through the whole song and dance of meeting new people.

each time i met him though, i regretted it more than the previous time lol. he was nice i guess but he was... a little weird.

i was chatting with a earlier and she made me realize that he might have been more than a little weird.

here's to never seeing him again.

-

another weird guy? a. and i'm really confused by him because he seemed extremely nice when i first met him.

i think i'm really bad at reading people and their vibes.

[Amanda]

End of June now.
I'm not mad about it.

[cr0wchild]

I hate this. Food just doesn't sound good anymore. Everything sounds literally vomit-worthy. There is not a single thing in this house that actually sounds edible. It all makes me want to barf.

How much is the ed? How much is the depression? How much is the medicine?

I don't know but I hate it.

[mewkittyy]

he saw me today at work and said he was so happy to see me and he missed my face.

meanwhile, I am miserable, I’d didn’t shower or put makeup on and I’m still sick as a dog.

I didn’t even respond it made me feel so good.

[Praenuntia]

Ugh I know what you’re doing. I can see that it’s not that you don’t want to talk, it’s that can’t put your pride aside. Quite frankly I’m over it.

[Laughter with an S]

Fulmination and ruin are all I have left to bequeath.

[double dokis]

♦♦♦

Someone called back about a job thing and I missed it bc I was at work.
THEY DID LEAVE A VOICEMAIL which I called back and like. No answer. (their google number)
Fingers crossed they call back. I turned my volume all the way up and everything so I don't miss it, should they call back.

But I'm like. Slightly hopeful. Maybe kinda.
Not expecting anything, but it would be nice!

♦♦♦

[LittIe Songbird]

The only thing I want on my skin is you

[Amanda]

I'm excited and nervous at the same time.

[Butcher]

Honestly I talk about basic deal breakers
in relationships, like no previous kids,
must want kids in the future, must like cats,
don't use drugs, don't drink excessively...
But yeah at any point in the relationship
if I begin to feel like you're not interested?
That's a problem.
Like you don't have to be obsessed with me
but I never stop flirting with someone
just because we're dating.
And I'm pretty understanding, I get someone
is not gonna be in the mood all the time,
but if I get consistently rejected, ignored,
put on the back burner because you'd rather
play games with the boys than spend time with me,
that. is. a. deal. breaker.
I can't have an adult relationship with someone
who acts like I'm just their ******** roommate,
or worse, their mom. lol
Not my job to do your laundry, clean your bathroom,
cook you dinner, pay the bills while you can't
be bothered to treat me like I'm even a tiny priority.
That's it.
That's my rant.
emotion_awesome

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I spent a lot of years hating my ex.
And I still kinda don't like him.
But when I think of him in a better light
I feel better, you know?
Like ok, I had that period in my life
where I held my grudge, but it's not relevant anymore.
I mean I still got the ptsd.
I still see something awful and be like
yeah he did that to me too.
But idk.
He wasn't heartless.
He wasn't a loser.
He wasn't doing it to hurt me
just because I got hurt by it.
He had the need to run and
when his opportunity came
he took it.
Good on him.
I can't hold that against him.
And the other s**t?
It's whatever.
Cheating isn't the worst thing.
It's bad, yeah, don't come for me. rolleyes
But idk you're not a good partner
just because you don't cheat.
He had good qualities to him
and I hope he's grown since we last met.
I hope he's happy.

[Laughter with an S]

The new knockled loose album is a game changer.

[Misanthropic Majesty]

I really want to get Icewind Dale 2 and play it over break, but there's only one week left and money is so scuffed right now.
Which reminds me I need to post my updated resume and start looking around again once this bullshit sickness stops x_x
I wish someone with a small business would just pay me something to take care of the bookkeeping. That would be good enough for now. I've put it out there for a couple of people but nothing has came of it.

[Snivy Judges You]

I wish I had a date for this Kamelot concert.