Dirty Little Secrets [Announcement 11/8/2023| Reminder 2024]

Before I go, I've got to know:

Is that what you mean to say?	29.2%	[ 807 ]
Before I rise to my defense,	5.0%	[ 138 ]
Before I speak in hurt or fear,	5.5%	[ 152 ]
Before I build that wall of words,	4.2%	[ 116 ]
Tell me: did I really hear?	10.0%	[ 277 ]
Words are windows, or they're walls,	9.7%	[ 268 ]
They sentence us, or set us free.	6.1%	[ 169 ]
When I speak and when I hear,	3.0%	[ 82 ]
Let the love light shine through me.	27.3%	[ 753 ]
Total Votes:			[ 2762 ]

[Wandering Spade]

Don't ever tell me it was luck that got me where I am. I worked extremely hard, and I didn't just give up despite everything that was against me.

Don't play the victim and ask for my sympathy. Don't act like I had more opportunity than you did.
I just never gave up, and accepted anything less than what I wanted. I never wanted to be the victim of my circumstances. And don't you dare bring her into this either because she worked as hard as I did, and made even more sacrifices than I was willing to. Neither of us got where we are because of luck. We just refused to give up. We didn't want the attention pitty got us, unlike you. We just had the motivation and drive to get here. You are not happy for us if you are willing to be little what we have done and make this all about you. You just want us to feel sorry for you. I don't and I won't ever. Neither will she as nice as she is. We have both been done with your crap for a long time. I have gone through too much, and worked too hard for you to tell me I am just lucky and your life sucks. You've always had it easier than me. I was just willing to do what ever it takes to accomplish my goals. No matter what stood in my way or what I went through. I am damn proud of everything I have accomplished, and all I have done and sacrificed to get where I am.

[Bunnycakie]

I sometimes wonder if you ever think of me and the horrible things you did to me, how bad you scarred me emotionally..but knowing you, you probably smiled and laughed at my idiocy.

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Miiight stream NES Remix. I'm having vertigo dizziness again..

[The WoIfie Among Us]

Sometimes I'm unsure if I should trust his words.
A part of me wants to believe
And the other part of me thinks that I shouldn't let myself get hurt again
I want to say he's different
But aren't they all?

[Hellodies]

I'm not used to these bras I got on Thursday...
You know that feeling when you feel uncomfortable using your new bras, and it takes a while to get used to them...?
Yeah, I have that going for me right now.. lol

...Feels odd talking about this sort of thing.. gdi.

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Why did you tell them to hold on to the papers..?
My document was there I really needed to turn that in for being M.I.A on Friday.

Sonofabitch...
I don't even know where my wristband is from the hospital visit...

[shiny spoink]

That reminds me,
I know for sure now that my boobs shrunk.
I noticed while my ED was ******** with me my boobs started to not fit inside my bra.
Now the bra indents if I poke the center.
cry

boobs, come back!

[shiny spoink]

They're still huge, but they got a little smaller. I don't get why???

[unrecognizable twit]

Everyday Arson Man

I don't want to use the absence of company as an excuse to hold me back from doing things I want to do. In fact, I'd probably be a bit more comfortable that way.

[o sister]

Sleepless Wanderlust

I'm really really really terrified of going to the gyno so I can't get on birth control, despite how badly I really want to because of painful menstruation. But the thought alone makes me wanna cry. I can't.

[Smoking Daffodils]

you really kind of bug me
the more I talk to you
the more I dislike you

like you are so hateful
I get I'm cynical and I can rant for ever on things
but that's allll you do
I don't think you have a happy thought in that head of yours
it's maddening

all day
everyday
it's all I hear
things you hate, the people you hate, hate, hate, hate
like geeze
take a ******** chill pill
smoke a bowl
take some shots
get laid
do ******** something
pleaseeee

[shiny spoink]

I am legitimately devastated by this.
I know my shrinking boobs are because I've lost weight.
My ED was at the expense of my boobs.
It's actually hilarious, but also saddening

[o sister]

Fan is pretty amazing.

[shiny spoink]

I don't think I'm a DDD anymore.
cry cry cry

[puella stellarum]

one more hour.
this will be so much easier when i'm back on campus and have stuff to do but for now since it's spring break (and i'm sick eughh) i just kinda wait for you to come home.
- - -
considering dropping my tutoring students because of the load i have this trimester. it's $60/week and three really great kids i would have to leave behind but my new job should make up for that loss in funds?
and i feel so badly for saying it but with two performamce groups, an honor society, full course load, clinical hours, a new job, AND probably going through with the social greek group because a lot of girls nominated me? i could use the extra three hours i usually spend tutoring.
plus my new job will need me as much as possible because i'm literally one of five employees in the restaurant that can serve alcohol.
it's $8.50/hour plus tips like i'm pretty sure i'll be okay for now. ughhh i hate decisions like this.

[Smoking Daffodils]

Today has been a good day
we woke up and watched Freddy vs Jason
mostly because well we spent 4 hours yesterday watching that documentary. which was AMAZING

we had to take a short break between it though for a few hours of babysitting.
I'm glad my mom set up my aunt for a date
she hasn't been out with a man in over 14 years.
his kids were really well behaved too
and I made some money
I always did enjoy my nanny job and random babysitting gigs

but today has been good
now were waiting for the next showtime for the movie tonight
looks wonderful
I adore Evan Peters so this will be fun.
the concept looks pretty good too
reminds slightly of flatliners which was a great film

I also did my nails
they are looking really nice
I have left my cuticles alone and now they are fully healed
my nails are all long and the same length
I'm so happy with how they look
I painted the tips a nice pearly white
shined the top layer

smoked a small amount of weed
it was nice
today was a good day

[shiny spoink]

Whenever I ask my mom a question she raises her voice. This is why I don't like talking to you