Sweet Sentiment
Takkita
oof I figured after three days it'd be gone. I still am feeling withdrawals though. For me it's very minor though. Just an electrical pulse shoots down from the top of my head into my left arm, followed by a quickening pulse that lasts less than a second, then some dizziness. Then it's done once I breathe through it to get calm again. I always feel that affect through every med change I've been through so it's not terrible to me knowing what it is.
Are you off all meds now then? I'm trying to be off everything just cause I feel more energetic off of meds. That muted effect of meds gets me sleeping way too much and feel very unmotivated.
Even when you start taking those kinds of medications, it takes a couple of weeks to kick in. I'm kind of jealous of the mildness of your symptoms. It might have to do with the fact that I was on my meds for about six years before quitting and the dosage had been increased at least twice. I quit taking them because they were making me crazy, thought it took me a long time to realize that it was actually the medicine.
I'm not taking anything now, and it was bad enough that I plan not to take anything ever again. I don't understand people who want to do drugs.
yeah I never understood street drug users. Why people? Whyyyyy?
I was on mine since...hmm I was working at the hospital then, full-time by that point. I've been on Disability for three years. ..worked two years at a cafe...I think it's been 7years now? Maybe? Maybe more? I was at the highest dose up until just a year ago. And now I'm at a point in my life I think all I really need is regular counseling and use the DBT skills I'm learning. My depression has pretty much been in remission for two or more years now. But I have a lot of anxiety from PTSD and I dissociate a lot. Neither are chemical based so, if I can go without the medicine I should do better. The meds did help me cope with certain things though in the past few years.
But my life has dramatically changed in the past three years. As soon as I got disability I moved out of my parents home and that alone has helped tremendously. They're good people but their rigid parenting style doesn't go well when you're an adult. I was 25 and getting grounded over stupid things like not hanging up my towels. I had a 10PM curfew too. Made no sense since I never had a curfew until after my last brother moved out. A lot of what was going on was very frustrating for me and I couldn't understand it. I just found out on Monday that all that was because someone in church made comments about me hanging out with someone they didn't like. So dad was just trying to please other people instead of letting me be an adult. When I was a teenager I came home when it got dark just cause we lived on a ranch. But then I'd go and stay at a friends house for a week at a time and do what I wanted. My parents didn't reign me in hardly til that church started butting in where they didn't belong and dad's too easily pressured despite what he says. Dad said he's learned better now, but kinda too late to change what was done. Oh wells. I'm just glad my parents really do try even though they suck at it.
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