Don't give up....
A message that I wrote to a friend of a friend. Everything I say in here is true, and if you don't believe me or if you don't want to believe me fine. But I know that I'm not the one who gave up. And I still love you, you can snort and go run to your friends and tell them that I'm just talkin' s**t again, but I'm not.
And I really want to thank Jess for sending me that Message. it made me feel better, and I got to let my feelings out to someone I knew I could trust without making them upset. Thanks for actually listening.
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And I really want to thank Jess for sending me that Message. it made me feel better, and I got to let my feelings out to someone I knew I could trust without making them upset. Thanks for actually listening.
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I'm sorry, Jessica. I didn't mean to take it out on you. Or anyone else. But I'm just trying to rid myself of anything that might remind me of Bella.
She's done so much to me between just yesterday and this morning.
Saying that I did this and that to her account. And she actually accused me of hacking it. And I didn't. I'll sit here and swear on my fathers grave for the rest of eternity even after I've died and gone to hell that I didn't do that. I love Bella way too much to do that to her.
And even though she says that she hates me, and that she's glad that I'm gone, and she's said a lot of hurtful things over the past few days... I can't stop loving her. She's been my best friend for at least two of our three years. And I hate to think it ended because she thinks that I'm jealous of Markition.
'Least that's what she told her.
v_____v'
And it's true that when Bella first told me that they were dating I was jealous. But that was because I had just got done confessing to her, I had broken up with Taylor, and I found out that they had been going out for two weeks without telling me.
I don't know if it was me being upset and moody, or jealous. But I know it's not either now. Now it's just that she's so moody with me all the time. and I know she has a lot of problems but she can't even talk to me about them.
She can go to you or Markition about them. But she can't go to me.
It hurts, man.
Last night and the night that I told her that I didn't want to be her friend...I didn't fall asleep until around five both nights because I was crying because...on the first night when I said I think It'd be better if we weren't friends anymore she was just so passive and cold and it seemed as though she just didn't care about me. At all.
It seemed like she never did once care about me. That it was always Markition. And that she'd kill me any day as long as it'd make Markition happy.
And on the second day she just said so many hurtful things and she hacked my account. and I told her over and over and over again that I didn't touch her account, and I didn't... but she wouldn't believe me.
She would never believe that anyone else but me could do something like that to her, but I don't have the heart to do anything like that to her.
I don't know that I knew what love was until I got to know Bella. And I didn't know heartbreak either.
I don't care if she doesn't believe me if you ever show her this but... I am sorry for anything I may have said to her that pissed her off. And I love her so much.
I guess I'm just one of those people who can't handle being second best to the person who matters most to them.
but like I said, I didn't mean to take it out on you. Just trying to get rid of all the people who might remind me of the one important person in my life who broke my heart on purpose.
I think you're one of the only people who don't hate me, anymore. Unless you do. v__v'
Dear god I'm crying again. xD'
She's done so much to me between just yesterday and this morning.
Saying that I did this and that to her account. And she actually accused me of hacking it. And I didn't. I'll sit here and swear on my fathers grave for the rest of eternity even after I've died and gone to hell that I didn't do that. I love Bella way too much to do that to her.
And even though she says that she hates me, and that she's glad that I'm gone, and she's said a lot of hurtful things over the past few days... I can't stop loving her. She's been my best friend for at least two of our three years. And I hate to think it ended because she thinks that I'm jealous of Markition.
'Least that's what she told her.
v_____v'
And it's true that when Bella first told me that they were dating I was jealous. But that was because I had just got done confessing to her, I had broken up with Taylor, and I found out that they had been going out for two weeks without telling me.
I don't know if it was me being upset and moody, or jealous. But I know it's not either now. Now it's just that she's so moody with me all the time. and I know she has a lot of problems but she can't even talk to me about them.
She can go to you or Markition about them. But she can't go to me.
It hurts, man.
Last night and the night that I told her that I didn't want to be her friend...I didn't fall asleep until around five both nights because I was crying because...on the first night when I said I think It'd be better if we weren't friends anymore she was just so passive and cold and it seemed as though she just didn't care about me. At all.
It seemed like she never did once care about me. That it was always Markition. And that she'd kill me any day as long as it'd make Markition happy.
And on the second day she just said so many hurtful things and she hacked my account. and I told her over and over and over again that I didn't touch her account, and I didn't... but she wouldn't believe me.
She would never believe that anyone else but me could do something like that to her, but I don't have the heart to do anything like that to her.
I don't know that I knew what love was until I got to know Bella. And I didn't know heartbreak either.
I don't care if she doesn't believe me if you ever show her this but... I am sorry for anything I may have said to her that pissed her off. And I love her so much.
I guess I'm just one of those people who can't handle being second best to the person who matters most to them.
but like I said, I didn't mean to take it out on you. Just trying to get rid of all the people who might remind me of the one important person in my life who broke my heart on purpose.
I think you're one of the only people who don't hate me, anymore. Unless you do. v__v'
Dear god I'm crying again. xD'
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We haven't talked in a while.
Guess what? I changed my profile, too. XD And I wore short shorts for the first time in years today! xD I'm so pale. oxo
Oh. I'm so very sorry. I am. Can I help in any way possible? I am here. I am. Even though you don't know me, truly, you can always contact me in PM's or in comments. I am here for you. You and you only! Just give me a little nudge and I will be answering your questions. No matter what, I luff you!
Katie.
But I read yours, and I want to say I'm sorry. Even if it's a lie. I don't care. Nobody know what you're going through now, and nobody probably will. But who knows? Maybe there's a chance you can get the beautiful girl back.
Then again, I'll be honest. I don't know how love works out. Maybe the girl needs to think. Maybe she's sonsidering sleeping pills now because of how hectic her life is. I don't know. You don't know.
All I'm saying is give her a chance to reply and think. You don't have to, but it might relieve some pain. Once again, I don't know for sure. But that's just what I wanted to say. Love always finds a way.
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I've always been madly in love with your formats... so... charismatic, if I think that's the word I was searching for.
Tee~!
Haha, I've never even played Phoenix Wright - all of my friends have, and so that's the only reason I even know about it.
>w<
I'm older than you are!
^_^
I feel so special now! ;D Well lucky for you guys! Just keep up the love and you'll be happy as ever!
So you guys aren't even sixteen?!
I thought you would!
^_^
Lucky. I am so jealous of you! You should have a Gaia wedding, as well!
DO YOU HAVE A WEDDING RING?!
What kind of dress do you want or are you going to be the groombride?
DETAILS!