About

OUT of ORDER
from yesterday to tomorrow
it fills my heart with sorrow
to watch me grow more alone
day after day
used to be I started the new trends
used to be I had a lot of friends
used to wonder what my life would be
if it didn't come to such a sudden end
forced to start anew all over again
emotionless, uncaring, dead
it fills my soul with dread
knowing that if we had looked ahead
different paths would of been tread
and I wound not have been so lonesome now
the yelling and the scorn
leave me be to feel forlorn
convivial stars don't show
my very essence is torn
unthought thoughts turn my senses numb
no one can save me from what I've become
so many memories forgotten
I can't remember where I'm from
so forgive me if I don't care anymore
if it's all been done before
and on this clear night
I listen to the rain pour
DOWN

(Every line refers to something different, and I'm not usually so dreary as I may seem.)