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Welcome to my profile. My apologies for not being very active lately.
But it's not like you've missed me anyway, right? And if you did, I'm sure you are used to me not being here by now. Otherwise, I'm sorry. Let me know if there's anything I can do to compensate for this... truly evil deed of mine. >_>
I've been kept busy for a long time. Dealt with things I no longer want to be part of my life. Things that have been bad for me, mostly memories and feelings. And, my lifestyle in general.
It's not like one can force him or herself to forget things as easy as that... I know. But if I change my ways of living, I'll break my ways of thinking as well. And this change is what has kept me busy. First the courage to take the step, then the walk all the way to the point of no return.
I hope it'll be for the better. I've carved my way through the shrouds onto a new path I know next to nothing about. Now I have no ground to fall back on.
I do feel a bit stronger than before. A bit more experienced when it comes to life. And I think that's what I need in order to make further progress... Because this is at a whole new level. The way of thinking... way of living. Takes some amount of discipline and backbone not to recoil.
But I'm not a child. I have heavy responsibilities, and I can't afford to be careless about the world around me anymore. I've forced myself into all of this, because it's what I need in order to keep my standards. And if I sink any lower than this, I'll know I wasn't ready to take this step.
Aside from all of this, I'd like to thank you all. Everyone I've met here on gaia since I arrived. All of you who have stayed with me until then. And all of you who faded away. Without you, I wouldn't be much of a person. It might not mean much to you, I'm sure there are plenty of others who have thanked you for your friendship, so I'm just another guy you've helped on your own difficult road of life.
But I mean it.
When I think back on all the moments we shared, it sends shivers down my spine. There's been both good and bad things that've happened, yes... but goodness alone is just half of it.
I'll stop here for now. Much is in my mind, and very little of it is worth mentioning. So you may be just a small part of my memories, but it's the part I cheerish the most.
Thank you all. And may we still create good memories for our future.