AboutThere isn't really much to say that most of you that I'm close to don't already know. And if you are bothering to read this, then we are probably close or will be one day.
*I'm 20 years old, and want more than anything to be a mom.
*I have five babies that I guess are up in Heaven according to the believers, I myself am atheist... So thinking about where my babies are hurts like hell. They are Riley Brooke lost on July 6, 2010. Liliana Paige, lost on September 8, 2010. Katelyn, lost on April 19, 2011, Samantha Lynn, lost on October 10, 2011, and Evelyn Sophia lost on February 28, 2012.
*I learned what love really means the hard way, but I don't love the ones who taught me that meaning any less even though the journey nearly killed me.
*I am a writer, photographer and a decent artist. If I've done avi art for you before then you would know.
*I live with my husband, because I really don't have any family left.
*I'm very protective of those I care for. And I tend to worry about them too much.
*When something hurts me, it takes a lot of time for me to get through the pain. I have an addictive personality, and suffer from bouts of depression that run in my family.
*I drew out the first tattoo I'm getting, the hands holding the baby hands and the butterfly on my profile... It's going to be on my back, and I hope to get it soon.
*I don't believe in hopes and dreams anymore- I believe in goals. If you set a goal and work for it, I think you can have or do anything.
*My biggest faults are the fact that I don't talk about my feelings, especially when I am hurting, and then I usually lie about being okay so the ones I care for don't worry about me... It's caused me a lot of trouble in the past, and a lot of regrets.
*My biggest regret in life is not trying to find my biological father just to talk to him until I was 18, because now he thinks I hate him and wants nothing to do with me.
*My greatest goal- have a family of my own one day. It wasn't yesterday, not today either... But maybe tomorrow I'll get to hold my baby and hear the words "I love you mommy" spoken just to me. heart
If there's anything you wanna ask, feel free to PM me. If we're close, I might even let you email or text me. Just ask.