s**t, I have not been on here in a LONG time... no kidding, I'm ashamed of myself.
I AM a crazy, epic, slapstick and bizarre person who can be complex and confusing at times. I'm a sphinx, a perplexed person who often keeps her own thoughts and feelings secret from both herself, and those around her. I'm was born on the cusp between Capricorn and Aquarius.
My behaviour and attitude is often paradoxical or a contradiction to another way I behave. No matter how much I love life, I always regret the fact that I was born. I guess I'm an okay or at-least a GOOD person but I am a very jealous person, however, I use my jealousy to try to better myself.
I always say what I mean, but what I mean is not what I want. I like and yet loathe repetition; I do not want or accept change but then again I love things changing to what I want or rather what expect of them. I guess you could say I'm a bit selfish in a way. I have had many troubles in my life, however I believe what my father always told me , “That which does not kill you, only makes you stronger.” You can either live in mourning, or learn from your sufferings and become a stronger PERSON.
I have chosen to be agnostic for the obvious reason; no religion which involves a higher unknown power has any concrete evidence of a God; however, there is no solid fact that proves that a God does not exist. Although I am unsure of the existence of god, I do still believe in a sort of spirit or essence. When a human dies it loses 21g of body weight. I think that is the small amount of weight that the spirit carried in your body. When you die you create your own heaven or hell. You or I will never know the truths unless we die. The meaning of life and the wonder of death are the two things that I think about most.
I marvel at the miraculous wonders of the outside world. NATURE is a fantastic creation sparked my hundreds of years of evolution and hybridism I know it sounds cliché, but I could sit outside, away from the city for hours, dazing into ocean waves in admiration or reading a book with nothing but the quiet sounds of animals as well as the soothing sound and feel of the wind. I would love to be in a place not touched by the sounds of the everyday world.
There are many things that I love about being in a RELATIONSHIP but the thing that I enjoy the most is being close to that person, being held is one of the greatest feelings that one can ever experience. I love silence, and conversation, depending on the time. I love the occasional romance, laying on ones chest and hearing their heartbeat, tickle and being touched.
If you actually take the time to read my profile, please comment me in my inbox. If you notice any spelling/ grammar mistakes, please let me know. “Know won is prefect.”