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((my thoghts:
how do you know when one loves you? it's confusing, I sit alone everyday dreaming, what is it like? to really be loved? to know somebody loves you unconditionally? (whatever that means...) it's a sad feeling...a terrible feeling...one of hurt and sorrow...I'm close to not being able to take it anymore....please somebody help me....anybody...just please....help))
(("all you need to know about me" by Me....of course))
Slowly, I am falling,
nobody can see me,
on the ouside I am smiling,
but inside, things go differently

so many emotions,
I build them up,
my true feelings,
I hide away,

friends? what friends?
nobody understands,
they never talk to me seriously,
I don't need them....

love? what is love?
never have I truly felt it,
nobody has shown me what it is,
but I want to know,

oh so badly I want to know....

what is it like?
for others?
for people who have somebody else they can talk to?
about their feelings? about anything?

afraid? yes...I am afraid,
I am afraid of what I hear,
I am afraid of what I see,
so afraid, I can't trust it anymore....

messed up? is that what I am?
broken?
lost?
tortured?

Sick....?
yes....sick....
these images, thoughts, feelings, the things I see,
they'r all mental....all in my head,

So...could it be I am in a dream?
no...a nightmare?
a terrible nightmare?
could it be I am asleep?

I can't wake up,
somebody help me!
please! I beg you!!
wake me up! help me forget this nightmare!

I want to be free,
free....free....end my missery,
if you are truely a friend,
you would see this, this life I suffer,

You would see that I have been lying,
I am lost,
I've given up on being found...
please help me...

move on.....