About

Hello I am kristal. I am someone you probably will not want to get to know. I am stright but none of my friends are. I am an emo as people call me but i just call myself me.



Just recently i fell in hard core love. he was my life. i could not even be a foot apart from him. but one day....she came along. it hurt so bad i cried myself to sleep.I think about our time day after day. And I still remember that promice he made. I will never leave you. Your heart is mine. Just to think...it was all a lie. now when i see her. anger an fury flair up. but i have to thinnk..its just my luck. I want him to remember who i wonce was. i need him back. but i don't think i can get him. he is finally happy. and thats all i pray. is that he stays happy. I will never break the promise i made. I am still loyal to it. He helped me. Then he lefted me. I need to walk on my own now. like a little baby. mom helps till they can walk. then they let go and the baby has to use his own strength. even if it has none left. I have to be that baby. and keep the fire burning. because if i fall. i will fall hard.

I love to right poems. I have one poem that i think will describe anything about me.
My Mask
This Mask I Wear
She Server Me Well
She Hides My Pain
So They Can't Tell
They See Her Smile
Never My Tears
She Shows No Sarrow
She Fights All My Fears
They Belive She Is Me
If Only They Knew
That She Is My Mask
My Savior Too
My Scares She Hides
Behind Laughter And Lies
She Say's Shes Fine
But Slowly She Dies



Belive it or not i Love Dinosaurs. I am weird xD i am also in love with saying rawr. :p i say it all the time xD Dinos are my favorite thing in the world xD *wispers* i even eat dino gummy bears xD lol


I may seem like a happy perrson. But what i do is i push alot of my pain and anger and stuff back to the back of my mind. because i hate when people around me are sad along with me. i am not good enough to have someone sad cuz i am. so i don't let people know it and i bottle it all up. so most of the time if i have a smile on its probably fake. i really am a depressed person.