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2020 update:
well it's been a while since I've seen friends online here though it looks like a few randomly still get on.
This site has well hit the deep end of wow the market is still totally screwed up...
I don't know if they will ever fix it, if they don't I doubt they will find many new members that will stay.

Health is concerning and so I'm more likely overly cautious about this year...
However, not much in my life has changed other than some family get together/holidays that have been totally cancelled.
It is to be expected.
Currently doesn't have a stable job however have taken a few more simple ones which I have got paid for a few drawings...
and that I've been working more on improving my art...

Most of my friends have kids now and so I don't get to talk to them much, understandable since everyone is busy...
I've tried to make time for friends but it just never happens, either a lack of a ride, distance, or just not knowing what to say anymore...

-Married back in 2014
-after my husbands cat died I just really have thought of having kids but the testing to go along with my health issues have been a concern and not only that well I want nothing to do with a hospital till the covid19 is gone...
besides I've been having sharp pains in my side and high liver enzymes... not sure if it's even practical anymore... I doubt the people I know will look here and read this but I guess there is a slight hope of wanting someone to talk to again...
I keep trying to message people and either I don't get a response or it's just simple how are you doing posts...
nothing new or changes here...
already had to deal with 3 deaths this year... which isn't as many as I had to deal with directly the year after I got married... 11 deaths was way too much for me... and my thyroid health plummeted that year
I can't cope with that kind of stress anymore... but I also seem to need someone to care for... when my husband's cat passed
I brought one of my kitties from my parents house to our place, and she has helped
however I know that I may not have her long, her sister passed this year and her brother died years ago, she still has one brother and a nephew kitty still at my parents
but they are senior kitties and the nephew is nearly a senior...
I don't know it's going to be hard to cope, she got really fussy when her sister died... I gave her some of my beanie babies and it really seemed to help my kitty, she hugs and cuddles them...

blah... live, this year, and so many things just hasn't felt right in years ...
dang being such a worry wort...


hmm the message below is old, I can't remember as to what all I was thinking of or whom but I liked the way I wrote it so I'm leaving it:
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Wow, I've been thinking a lot.
mostly about the past
sigh... kind of wish I could repair something that broke, something like a friendship which was broken into clear glass shards but there isn't any way to without it showing the cracks like ice on a lake melting away it can't be placed the exact same way again...

10/8/2011 sweatdrop