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Report | 01/08/2008 12:38 pm

So in a shorter version of your explaination of world domination. We kill everyone, even ourselves, XD and then maybe if we are lucky human life would come back. If the whole ice thing and utopia thing don't happen? Wow.. you a little crazy, you know that right?

Report | 01/06/2008 2:55 pm

iMuffin x3

Yuppers, probally.

Report | 01/06/2008 11:49 am

XxBlood TearsxX

The same thing, huh? Well i'm sorry to say this, but it's boring as hell! I mean damn!

Ooooh getting stuck makes more sense than actually breaking the key totally.

And how did i get into taking over the world? Earth is just a lonely planet with so many people on it with so many problems, so i want a new planet to take over, forget Earth theres still more to be taken over!!

Report | 01/05/2008 3:03 pm

iMuffin x3

That I'm doubting.

Report | 01/05/2008 2:07 pm

XxBlood TearsxX

Not too much, avioding anymore, well bad situations i can... and how can you break a shift key? I mean... Wow, i havent even broke any of my keys lol. Anyways, what have you been up to?

Report | 01/04/2008 10:24 am

Lavidian

rybbo haf oayn du oui so vneaht

<3

Report | 12/30/2007 10:38 am

iMuffin x3

Yes, Its very very annoying x] Nothing really, bored as hell, the usual. ;D

Report | 12/29/2007 8:10 pm

Lavidian

i've never told you......ithink o.o

Report | 12/28/2007 7:13 pm

iMuffin x3

Bah, what the heck. Oh well. It was some merry christmas thing. x]

Report | 12/28/2007 9:12 am

Lavidian

im part italian.....i can speak some too

Report | 12/27/2007 9:32 pm

Lavidian

ha......i wouldnt even think that was what your talking about...lol

Report | 12/27/2007 8:04 pm

Lavidian

what

Report | 12/26/2007 10:32 pm

Lavidian

clouse-kun........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Report | 12/24/2007 12:24 pm

iMuffin x3

Report | 11/09/2007 7:29 pm

XxBlood TearsxX

Yeah truth can hurt sometimes.... even when other people you preferally dont like are saying it. But you know what i have learned to ignore it to live with it... thats the only thing i can do anymore. And you know what it have served me well... so far at least.

Between these annoying court cases.... and constant threat of being lied to, i had time to think about what it looks like from the outside. Yeah so what if my parents get devorced.. so what if my dad walks out on us, and so what if my life crashes donw, someone else has it worse so i must look at it that way and keep moving forward. There is a dawn somewhere at the end of the path... its just me fiding it that may actually help me one day.

Report | 10/12/2007 7:25 pm

XxBlood TearsxX

Well I'm glad i get to be happy. It's not scarying my BF anymore...I'm looking at things differently... and now i really dont care what my dad says anymore really. He is dong so much stupid Sh!t anymore it aint funny anymore. But you know what its tiem to get over it and move on.

Thats the only thing i have left to do... is move on and odnt look back, if i look back my own feet will trip me and i will be forever stuck in misery.

Report | 10/07/2007 5:50 pm

XxBlood TearsxX

Sorry....... but i was having a really bad day when i wrote that. I didnt relize what i was saying... i was crying i was hurt. but it did help me out a bit. I was to the point of a mental breakdown. Everything was clouded everything didnt seem fair to me, until i finally got it out and actually later that night my friends broke me out cause i was crying so hard and couldnt think straight they took me to a football game and let me rant it out all there... I scared a lot of people and when i got home... man did i crash hard.

But.. i did have time to... think after i was clear of everything... once i felt like i was at peace even if the tension was only gone for a brief moment i finally got to think clear of mind. I dont have to worry about it anymore.... just have to move forward... till i see what the gods have left for me in the path of darkenss i still have ahead. I know things may get worse, i bet tjey are going to get worse, but i cant break down adn cry about it everytime my body says to stop and curl up in tears. I hope now, since that is finally out of me, the screaming i heard that day still rings in my head.. but im not going to sit on it and let myself be buried in my tears once again. Right now, i look at the past few weeks, laughing at myself. I didnt relieze how much i actualy did turn away from people.... how i really made people mad at me, feel sorrow for me.... feel as hopeless as i was as i kept sulking around and doing stuff in slump. But... now.... i dont feel the need to cry anymore... i dont even feel the need to yell or scream about what happened to me. Its not fair and i know it... but why even bother crying about it? The gods have blessed me in a moment of silence.... or maybe it was your god, your lord trying to get my attention. I dont know what it was... but for a long time, i feel like i have a right to be happy.

Report | 10/05/2007 2:12 pm

XxBlood TearsxX

Yes, I'm giving up... there's no other way. I was actually happy for the first time in weeks today and then i come home and get yelled at again. My dad... "dad" was pissed off cause he had to take care of his daughter and then he puts it off on us when we get home. There was no one here but jade and me... and me being the oldest i should have fought harder and not broken down into tears making jade stick up for me, it wasnt fair. You should never see your older sibling cry and break down and say i need to get out of this house. ONe of my friends want to come and break me out but i told htem not to.. i just cant do it anymore. I dont know what to do anymore... Every time im happy again my "dad" thinks of something so i can go back down. I'm giving up on happiness...I'm giving up on trusting anyone anymore... how is it fair when i do... i just fall once again.

Report | 10/04/2007 3:40 pm

XxBlood TearsxX

Stop it, huh? All i have been thinking about is the past, and i cnat consitrate on anyting else right now. I keep looking at the what ifs instead of the what did... i cant look at it as it did happen it just wasnt fair to everyone that was involved. Everytime i try pulling myself back on my two own feet i get knocked down by the one who knocked me in hole of darkness the first time. When im actually happy, and almost stable enough to go back to i dont know maybe where i was before, something else happens. How is that fiar? How is it even bareable to the little bit of the heart i ahve left?

Report | 10/04/2007 2:58 pm

XxBlood TearsxX

Well... i really hope you are right.. in the long run i really do. I mean really eerything that i do anymore is slipping and you should see what i draw in art anymore...its really dark nothing what i used to do. I know i shouldn't say this, but what happened... i really truely do blame myself. If i wasnt so blind, so dening the truth maybe...just maybe it wouldnt have happened. I guess in a way what happened is my fault.

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