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This is Stupid...Im gonna go cut myself for money now. Bye! . . ~
Last Login: 12/10/2010 1:32 pm
Registered: 04/22/2005
Gender: Female
Location: In my head
Occupation: hired murderer
This is Stupid...Im gonna go cut myself for money now. Bye! . . ~
MY GUARDIAN ANGEL
Falling with broken wings,
Mouth bound so I cant scream,
Chained to the walls and chained to the floors,
Screamind silently behind closed doors,
Wrists bound causing harm,
Blood dripping down my arms,
Scars reopened wounds unhealed,
So much anger forced to kneel,
The aura of this place so moody,
It is so dark there is no beauty,
But then you came you set me free,
Removed my binds and let me see,
There is still beauty in the lonely world,
In your embrace I am curled,
You saved me and let me live,
All my sins you would forgive,
You picked me up when I fell,
I love you My Guardian Angel.
SENSES
Taste represents my closest friend,
My closest friend is my cat,
Now you may think that I am weird,
But I am not as odd as that,
You see my cats name is Skittles,
The name of a candy all should know,
And what I love most about it,
Is that the slogan is Taste the Rainbow,
Now a Rainbow is a sight to see,
The colorful way it curves and bends,
Theres always a bright aura around it,
Every sad hear that it mends,
The scent is probably filling and sweet,
To chase lifes bitterness away,
When you smell the scent of a Rainbow,
Youll always have a brighter day,
And then there is the pot of gold,
To have you hands on it is the sweetest touch,
It will make you the richest man,
Because the gold is such good luck,
Now last but not least is the sound,
And Im not going to lie,
My favorite sound is waking up at midnight,
To the voice of my Skittles cry.
More about me
Name: Kymberly though most call me Kym
Age: Im 16 though a lot of times I dont act my age just cuz its more fun, whether I act younger, the general case, or older, which doesnt happen much anymore.
Height: Im 5'7" which in my opinion, is the perfect height to be for a girl. Not too short or too tall.
Weight: I way 150 pounds and Im gonna lose those extra pounds from the holidays and get back down to at least 130.
Thing I like and favorites
Likes: I enjoy hanging out with my friends, either going downtown, or hust hanging out some where else. I also love getting online, especially to talk to my friends on gaia and some other hobbies that I enjoy, are writing my poetry and short stories as well as novels and songs for whatever reason other than the fact that I also play a musical instrument. I like to watch anime but get easily bored with the cheesy kind that plays pretty much the same episode every time, just different.
What are my favorites? Well lets see:
Person: Thats an impossible one to decide
Food: Pancakes by a long shot
Drink (other than alcohol): I'll have to say Bawles energy drink. Or Sobe cuz Ive got a major sobe bottle collection. xP
Alcohol: Not that I drink all that often anymore but it would have to be vodka. Any type of vodka.
Drugs: I dont do any drugs at all anymore but back then it was meth in any form.
Sex position xP: Cant say I even really have sex anymore either but it wasnt really a position, more a type that was my favorite...bondage.
Movie: Anything with Hannibal in it...watching a guy who enjoyed eating the body parts of others and then telling other people about it...I dont know. I just think his personality is really interesting. Worth studying further.
Anime: I love Gravitation!
Book: I like the book The Queen of the Damned or Dracula. Yes Im a fan of vampires.
Manga: The manga would have to be Full Metal Alchemist.
Career goals (Though I hardly think Ill get that far): I either want to follow a career path in psychology or become a writer.
Done with the favorites. If ya want to know anything more about that, you can PM me.
Sexual preference: I am bisexual and I do completely support gay rights so if your a homophobe, I dont mind being your friend but dont go off on a tantent about how much you hate gay people and how they should die cuz Im not gonna listen to that BS.
My Past
I dont really want to say a lot about my past because it was a pretty rocky one. I will say the basicas however. I have been sexually abused more than once and physically and emotionally abused many many times but all by the same person so I still only count it as once. My family has a history of drug use and depression and so do I. Like most of the males in my family, I have ODd on drugs many times as well, though a lot of them did not survive like I did. Only one of them is listed in my signature. I have had a history of suicidal idealation, though that is in the past and have self mutilated many times leaving scars that I do resent now. I am not crazy although a lot of people have thought so not only by the things I do but the things I say as well. Though Ive learned to control my verbalization.
I guess if you have any other questions, just PM me and I will decide if I will answer them or not.
Suicide Girl
I am a girl,
Alone in the world,
Death is the only one,
Who can cure this sickness,
I wait for the day,
Where death lays,
I can hear deaths silent hum,
But it doesnt come,
It seems I have but one choice,
For I have no voice,
Suicide,
I am a Suicide Girl,
Listen to my silent cry,
For if you can hear it,
You are the only one,
who can prevent it,
You hear it,
Wil you help,
Or will you let me be,
To do as I wish,
To end my life,
As I so choose,
To be alone,
Away from the world,
Where no danger lies,
Except for myself,
The Suicide Girl.
((I dont feel this way anmore.
I wrote this on 11/30/06.))
You Are My Beating Heart
Take my breath away,
Be there to fill my heart,
Replacing it today,
You are my life support,
Please dont leave me now,
Youre needed more than ever,
More than you even know,
You are my only pleasure,
Theres stuff I havnt told you,
Things youve never seen,
A lot of s**t I went through,
The places that Ive been,
I blame myself for most of it,
My carelessness and fear,
My life is altered from that s**t,
And so I need you here.
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You still around? I miss you buttloads. sad