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Jesabella Moon

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Registered: 06/10/2009

Gender: Female

Birthday: 10/01/1994

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Final Attire Report | 01/08/2023 11:26 am
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Sarhann Report | 01/07/2023 9:19 am
Sarhann
Holy crap, first time I've seen a wild reference to Kamelot in years!

It's not the same without Roy though.
angelsweetcoconutcake Report | 12/04/2022 2:07 pm
angelsweetcoconutcake
I love your profile!!!! It's so artistic!!!! It is okay if I vent to you about something? It's rather long if that's okay.


Thank you so much for commenting on my thread! I really appreciate your insight. It means a lot.

I've actually been hurting over a potential relationship that did not work out. I feel so down.

I'm in a weird phase of my life where I'm still trying to figure out my career. I've struggled a lot academically. I graduated medical school 3 years ago and have been studying for board exams (that are needed to apply for medical residency programs - training programs for doctors). In school, I repeated a year and was at the bottom of my class. I had to re-take exams every single summer. Was not able to get involved in extracurricular activities. Getting residency is ultra competitive, unnecessarily and very expensive. I've only gotten 1 interview so far (and by the way, they only hire once a year). I'm studying to re-take a board exam that I need to add onto my application so it looks better (more of a likely chance a program will choose you because I'm a weaker applicant).

And romantically....I was interested in this guy for 14-15 years of my life. It didn't work out and I have been feeling devastated. It was a stupid, long crush. We had no interaction, I just had seen him and knew of him. He's the son of family friends (well, they are close friends of my dad's elder brother and sister-in-law). His mom always really liked me. I know this sounds super conservative/traditional. We were formally introduced to each other. He actually came over to my house and really hit it off. He wanted my number and we were in the talking stage (it was over text). Things were fine until he started questioning me about money, job prospects, and children/nannies. He's in his early 30s with absolutely no friends and described himself as "robotic". He asked me about how many children I wanted and if I'd work part-time or full-time. When I said part-time to work around the children's schedule, he asked, "What about all that school and all those exams that you did?" He said its important for both people to work. He said he would work from home because he does not subscribe to traditional gender roles. When asking about nannies he didn't want that and said his parents would watch the kids. He asked what my views on our children having medication and psychiatrists are. Also asked me if I had a rainy day fund (which I don't have because I'm not earning yet).

He works at the intersection of IT/Finance and is now the director for the company he works for. I only went along with it because I thought it was normal. It felt like an interview/checklist. He had big issues with me wanting to treat myself off and on, for example, wanting to go out to eat once a week. He said if I'm going out to eat once a week and he's contributing to our children's college fund then there is an imbalance. When I told him I wanted to dress nicely or buy decorative items for our home, he said I was just doing things for appearance's sake. I tried offering a balanced approach (treating ourselves on occasion/being financially responsible and saving and investing). He didn't recognize this as a good idea. I even made my wants smaller and said we could go out to eat twice a month even, which he still wasn't happy with. Bear in mind, this individual owns 3 homes and makes over 300K+ a year. I told him that I felt he had an unhealthy relationship with money, which I felt concerned and unsettled by.

He does give back to charity (supports the education of children in developing countries by sending money, prefers 'bare bones" vacations, and volunteered his time at horse farms. He hikes in remote locations and goes mountain biking.

He wasn't honest about his previous relationship (together for 2 years and had broken up a year prior to me talking to him), when I said we could talk about things later. He told me he had felt so lucky to have met me and liked
Mister Piggy Wiggy Report | 11/11/2022 9:07 pm
Mister Piggy Wiggy
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Sexy_Lexi_2021 Report | 11/08/2022 1:31 pm
Sexy_Lexi_2021
You doing ok? I haven't heard from you in a while.
Sexy_Lexi_2021 Report | 11/06/2022 6:20 pm
Sexy_Lexi_2021
Heya Jess. ❤️
SapphicBookworm Report | 10/01/2022 7:00 am
SapphicBookworm
Happy birthday lovely!!! heart
Wishing you all the best today~!
Sexy_Lexi_2021 Report | 09/30/2022 3:00 pm
Sexy_Lexi_2021
Happy almost birthday hun. 💋
Smcookie6 Report | 09/13/2022 6:13 am
Smcookie6
Haha make up in a concert sounds a bit uncomfy, but you looked great! hope you had a good time that day! biggrin
Smcookie6 Report | 09/12/2022 12:37 pm
Smcookie6
The make up was great!. However the jacket made you look a bit casual, kinda expected elegant/goth clothes to acompany that style of make up :3

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