Me...In a few or more words..

I'm a secret. I don't understand who I am, or what I am. Within me exist a darkness I can barely control. I'm scared of it. I'm a monster. My family says I can be saved, but I sold my soul to hell just to protect them from myself.
I try to stay normal, happy. I love my little sister, Alice. She's amazingly wonderful, so full of light. I wonder how we're related sometimes.
My mom says I'm a really good pianist. I'm not sure. I can't really truly play because I can't read music.
I don't tend to get close to people, because I feel things about bad stuff that'll happen. I don't want to see the ones I love die over and over in my mind. I can't take it.
God help me.