"Sick Of Crying, Tired Of Trying Yeah, I'm smileing But; In Side Im Dieing"

People judge me because of the way I present myself. They put me under labels and pretend to know me and what im all about, and honestly it does kill me more and more by the second. I hate that my friends and family have high expectations of me, and some even expect me to be someone I never can be. I am what I am, I am who I am, and I'm not going to change it ... no matter how much you hurt me.

"As I put the razor to my skin, I feel the adrenalin, the pain is a sudden rush through out my body, as the blood falls to the floor I see my pain and worries staring to disappear. I hide my tears in fear of what you may say, but without you these scares will not exist. My love, my life, my reason of reasons. I sit here and bleed with nothing more. My smiles, my tears, my lies, my heart tares more and more each and every second. You deny your love, I deny this pain in my chest. All this pain I feel when your not by my side. Some call it love; I call it suicide. The razor can only go so far; so deep; a person can only bleed so much, but the pain never ends. My nights are cold, my arms are empty. The cuts cover up the pain, My smile covers up the tears. As you walk along too blind to see that I'm dying. The days get harder, the nights get longer, they never seem to end. I fake a smile and wipe away all the tears. For when I'm with you. I feel like i'm in a differend world, sucked into the past. It feels so right; like nothings wrong. Without you I find myself lost and broken trying to wipe away the tears that fill my eyes, kiss my pain away as I hope for you to save me."

Disappointed; I said no; and he does it anway. I told him so; I'm not gonna be there to pick up the pieces; so he looked me in the eyes and left me behide.

What do you do when you must let go ... But can't? When your so sick of seeing the person you love the most go threw so much pain it kills you more and more each and every day to look at them and see that on the inside their dying but just wont admit to it? What do you do if your only choice is letting them go even if it's going to kill you more and more but the minute; by the second? Somewhere inside you know you love them; and you have to say good-bye for sometime now; until everything is okay. Although you know inside nothing will be right; not ever again. When you promised them 'I'll never leave your side, yes i'm disappointed but I wont leave you'? I'm telling you Kyle. I love you with it all my heart but I can't sit here and watch my brother get killed by some girl that he loves but she's broken your heart so many time's you've lost control of your feelings. So many times that you know she's going to do it again, but her hurting you is the only thing you've felt. I just wish you would understand ... I'll be here for you; a girl friend wont; a sister will. A love for a brother can never breake, never loose control, but a love for something else, can breake and most likely will. After they've hurt you a number of times it's time for you to let go. We fight, but always make up. You fight with her, you guys make up, but you always feel that scar in your heart. I wish you could understand I'm doing this for your own good. I'm sorry I'm doing this to you I JUST CAN'T SIT HERE AND FEEL YOUR PAIN LIKE I'M THE ONE WHO IS DOING THIS TO YOU, because it is my fault; for not taking better care of my big brother. I always promised you I wouldn't leave your side. And I just broke it. You've always had my back through the good and bad times. When I was crying through September to now about Coryy; you always listened never letting me go. You never left my side; which I would of wanted to leave if I was you but then I realize it wasn't my fault I felt that way. It wasn't anyone's fault. But atleast if I could of fixed it I WOULD OF. You can fix it and your chooising not to. I'm done with watching you get broken over and over again. I love you to much for that to happen. I just want you to understand. I love you more and more each and every second. And I want you to know, I'll always be your little sister,who ended up leaving your side because I wasn't strong even to stick up to reality.

Roses are red, violets are blue, once upon a time ... there was me and you. I feel like just yesterday; when I was with you once more. I remember the shine in your smile; the sparkle in your eyes. I couldn't believe you were really mine. I love the feel of your palm tightly inside mine. The warmth of your cheeck resting against mine. It was like harmony to me, nothing could change, nothing could break. But something went wrong ... it grabbed you and made you change. You slowly started to forget, I slowly started to fade. My bright smile starting to break, my happiness slowly turning into hate. My beautiful halo above my head slowly started to slip down to choke me and take my eveything right along with it. Fate was pulling us apart; I guess it wasn't are time to be and at that moment when I lose it all ... I couldn't fight back the tears. They slowly started to drip, right down my face. Spiling all of my fears; my lies, Just all it is now ... Me and You ... You and Me. Always together ... in my memories. If I could ... i'd take it all back, just to have it back. I want you again, forever and beyond. This time I'm promising you, this wont break. Nothing could possibly go wrong. Just wish ... I could be your girl again. I miss your everything.



The Moffatts - Bang Bang Boom Lyrics
Early morning
I got Mona Lisa by my side
What’s the story
Behind that devious smile?

doo doo doo doo
doo doo doo doo doo doo
doo doo doo doo

She’s an angel
Now, she’s the monkey on my back
She the freedom
Still she never lets me go no

And my blood starts pumpin’
And my heart goes jumpin’
Every time she says, ‘I have to go now’
But it really don’t matter for worse or for better
She will always be my number one
she goes…

doo doo doo doo
doo doo doo doo doo doo
doo doo doo doo
My heart goes bang bang boom
doo doo doo doo
When she walks into the room
doo doo doo doo
My heart goes bang bang boom

She supplies me
Whenever ever I’m in need
Still a thief
From the day she stole my heart now

And my blood starts pumpin’
And my heart goes jumpin’
Every time she says, ‘I have to go now’
But it really don’t matter for worse or for better
She will always be my number one
She goes…

doo doo doo doo
doo doo doo doo doo doo
doo doo doo doo
My heart goes bang bang boom
doo doo doo doo
When she walks into the room
doo doo doo doo
My heart goes bang bang boom

When she walks into the room
She makes me touch the sky
Her devil in disguise
She makes me touch the sky
An angel in disguise

[she makes me cry, yeah, yeah]

Mona Lisa by my side
With the devious ol’ smile
She’s the devil in disguise
Still she makes me touch the sky
Love supplier when I need
Stole my heart and made me bleed
Well, I don’t mind, I don’t mind, I don’t mind
When she goes…

doo doo doo doo
doo doo doo doo doo doo
doo doo doo doo
My heart goes bang bang boom
doo doo doo doo
When she walks into the room
doo doo doo doo
My heart goes bang bang boom

doo doo doo doo
doo doo doo doo doo doo
doo doo doo doo
My heart goes yeah, yeah, yeah
doo doo doo doo
When she walks into the room
doo doo doo doo
My heart goes bang bang boom