Why do you love me?? I ask wishing and hoping he'd tell me why. But insted of an anwser, silence filles the air, I know whats coming up next, he's gunna yell, and I'm gunna cry. But thats okay, I just wanna know why. Why me? out of all those girls? Why me? Out of all those hearts, Why mine? Out of all those dreams why was I the one to become reality? Why do I diserve to see him laugh to see him cry, Why me? Why dose he love me?

If you really knew me,
you'd know the real me not the me I try to be,
you'd know this smile isn't real,
you'd know that I wipe away the tears I've never shown,
every night when I go home,
And I hold,
hold back the tears so that you dont see me cry,
I keep it all inside,
Inside-out,
scream and shout,
theres not doute,
that thats me that you'd see,
if you really knew me,

-me

If only you could see, what I really see when I look at me.

When you feel the rain fall down your face,
remember my tears.
When pick a rose and get pricked by the thorns,
remember how you made me hurt and bleed.
When you drop that rose in pain,
remember how you let me fall.
When you run into your house,
forget that its there and acsadently step on it,
remember how you ran from me,
forgot I was there,
and steped all over my heart.
And when you come back,
the rain still falling down your face,
the rose still carlessly lieing on the ground,
all broken and brused.
When you pick it up and hold it tight.
Remember how you came back to me,
found me broken and brused.
And tryed to hold me tight.....
Then when you look over and see that rose bush,
forgeting about the rose in your hand,
you drop it as you pick another rose from the bush and it pricks your finger,
the rain still falling down your face.
remember how you left me for another....
more beautiful and full of life...
even though your the one that made me that way.

-ME.-

Gone on a blind date: Yes and no, it's really hard to explain when i'm typing it instead of saying it.... it was kind of a blind date because everyone else knew it was going to happen and helped him plan it and I didn't untill it actually happend.

Skipped school: No, I can truthfully say I havent.

Watched someone die: Yes, sadly I've watched three people I held very dear die right infront of me, I hope no one ever has to see that. I wouldn't even wish that upon satin himself.

Been to Canada: No, but it sounds pretty cool, might add that to my list of things to do before I die.

Been to Mexico: No, but every one thinks I'm mexican even though I'm not, I guess I look like it, does that count??

Been to Florida: YES!! DISNEY WORLD DUH!! (like once when I was nine and it was so hot that I could barley breath and was misrable all day, but I loved it cause I got to meet Cinderella IN PERSON and I'd so do it again!!)

Been on a plane: No and I personally don't plan on it.... It's frightining just to think about.

Been lost: Deffenatlly like a trillion times in a quadrillion different ways.

Been on the opposite side of the country: No, because I'm afraid every thing would feel backward or something like my left being my right.... something WEIRD like that.

Gone to Washington , DC: No, I was going to go with the school, but my parents just happened to be broke every time we were suppose to make a payment so, for some ODD reason, they didn't let me go.

Swam in the ocean: No, I'm afraid of deep water, but, if I had the chanse, I would totally do it!!

Cried yourself to sleep: all the time.

Played cops and robbers: Me (Cop) and Tiyla (robber), third grade, she totally anialated me.

Recently colored with crayons: Yep, love de crayons!! Did you know they made a crayon named purple people eater?? It's so totally my favorite color now!!

Sang Karaoke: Yes, once upon a purple sky I sung what hurts the most by rascal flatts with Tiyla. =^^=

Paid for a meal with coins only: No, but I'm so going to do that one day, CAN'T WAIT FOR THE LOOKS!!

Done something you told yourself you wouldn't: Yep, got a boyfriend in Middle school, but I'm glad I did, he's my world now, and will always be.(Three years in Febuary!!)

Made prank phone calls: No, haven't done that yet.

Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose: YES!! It was Pepsi and it burned!! OUCH!! (rubs nose)

Caught a snowflake on your tongue: Yes, and it tasted pretty good too!!

Danced in the rain: Yep, Disco mania!!

Written a letter to Santa Claus: Yes, of corse, every year!! (and still do XD)

Been kissed under the mistletoe: No, but its one of my deepist desires....

Watched the sunrise with someone you care about: Yes, my friends and my boyfriend at like 5 am!! ^^

Blown bubbles: YES!! Who hasent??

Gone Ice-skating --without skates: Very slippery perdicament.... ^^;;;;

Been skinny dipping outdoors: No, but oddly enough it sounds really fun if i was with the right person(s)...

Gone to the movies alone: No, and never want to, I'd feel like a lonly pig eating a whole thing of popcorn by myself.

1. Any nickname? Rose, kk, kit cat, sis, rosi, roses, trina, rina, katwana, hiyla, tt, mexican, girl, chick, lady, gril, bone-face, kitty, katie-bug, short stop, shorty, Ada, Ziminica Adriana Brooks, Paxadora, Pax, if you think of any i didn't write down pm me.

3. Favorite drink? WATER!! X.X

4. Tattoo? Not yet.

5. Body Piercings? Ears (3 one each) Use to be belly button.

6. How much do you love your job? BurgerKing 6 am- all I'm gunna say.

8. Favorite vacation spot? My boyfriends house.

9. Ever been to Africa ? No but i'd lov3 to got there some day, it sounds beautiful.

10.Ever eaten cookies for dinner? Of course.

11. Ever been on TV? yes, the news when we were crowned 'cool school' this year.

12. Ever steal a traffic sign? no

13. Ever been in a car accident? no

14. Drive a 2-door or 4-door vehicle? none, don't want to drive.
5. Favorite salad dressing? RANCH (on every thing.)

6. Favorite pie? CHEESE CAKE, wait, is that even a pie??

17. Favorite number? four

18. Favorite movie? Thumbalina

19. Favorite holiday? Christmas

20. Favorite dessert? Vanella icecream!!!!

21. Favorite food? Baked potatos with extra sour cream, or mexican pizza also with extra sour cream.... =^^=


22. Favorite day of the week? Yesterday, what ever day that may be to you.

23. Favorite brand of body wash? Cocobutter (More of a sent then a brand but oh well.)

24. Favorite toothpaste? Limon crest.

25. Favorite smell? Hand sanatizer, nail polish remover, sharpie (or skurple if you're like tragity and buy the totally awsome off brand that sounds like a illness) And Shadow's hoodies. X)

26. What do you do to relax? Write EVERY THING YOU NEED TO KNOW ABOUT CHARLY SACHER. (A book I'M writting.)

27 . How do you see yourself in 10 years? Living alivly, out of collage, married to Shadow, with a couple kids, maybe a great dane named pancake. (I'll be twenty-eight; YUCK!! OLDNESS!!)

29. If you could have a 'do-over,' what would it be? I wouldn't have liked Miracle, I wouldn't have accused Shadow of liking HER, I would have told Shadow I liked him sooner, maybe we'd be closer by now if I would have, I would have spent every last second with my grand-pa, uncle Greg, and uncle Ernie, I would have been there every second Tiyla needed me this week, (9/12) right by her hospitle bed side, I would have grown up sooner, I would never had cut myself, or planned suiside, I wouldn't have said what I did, and I would have opened my whole heart up to Shadow when it was closed, I wouldn't have been so selfest to him or so worrifull, I would have fallen asleep in Shadow's arms longer, and fell in love with him faster, and held on to every word he spoke, and spoke what was on my mind no matter how stupid or senseless, I would have made gorra come to church with me the night she ran away, or atleast stayed home with her, I would have learned how to play eukure, or wrote down all my grandpa's sayings, I would have called some one instead of crying, and I would have punched Renee in the face before she moved away, I would have stodd up for myself when people yelled at me, and smiled and laughed when they called me names, I would have been a better person, but, as sad as it is, that can't happen..... No matter how hard I pray every night that it will.

30. Why isn't there a qustion 28? It was boycotting being part of the number system, now it's on its own, becuase it hated being part of a packaged deal, so now we have to skip it every time we count cause it's no longer a number.

=*.*= hope you enjoyed.... Zaminica Adriana Brooks (Ada) (Hiyla)

Proof That the World Is Nuts

In Lebanon , men are legally allowed to have sex with animals, but the
animals must be female. Having sexual relations with a male animal is
punishable by death.

(Like THAT makes sense..)

In Bahrain , a male doctor may legally examine a woman's genitals, but
is prohibited from looking directly at them during the examination. He
may only see their reflection in a mirror.

(Do they look different reversed?)
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Muslims are banned from looking at the genitals of a corpse. This also
applies to undertakers. The sex organs of the deceased must be covered
with a brick or piece of wood at all times.

(A brick?)
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The penalty for masturbation in Indonesia is decapitation.

(Much worse than 'going blind'!)
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There are men in Guam whose full-time job is to travel the countryside
and deflower young virgins, who pay them for the privilege of having sex
for the first time. Reason: under Guam law, it is expressly forbidden
for virgins to marry.

(Let's just think for a minute; is there
Any job anywhere else in the world that even comes close to this?)
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In Hong Kong , a betrayed wife is legally allowed to kill her adulterous
husband, but may only do so with her bare hands. The husband's illicit
lover, on the other hand, may be killed in any manner desired.

(Ah! Justice!)
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Topless saleswomen are legal in Liverpool , England - but only in
tropical fish stores.

(But of course!)
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In Cali, Colombia, a woman may only have sex with her husband, and the
first time this happens, her mother must be in the room to witness the
act.

(Makes one shudder at the thought.)
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In Santa Cruz , Bolivia , it is illegal for a man to have sex with a
woman and her daughter at the same time.

(I presume this was a big enough problem that they had to pass this
law?)
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In Maryland , it is illegal to sell condoms from vending machines with
one exception: Prophylactics may be dispensed from a vending machine
only 'in places where alcoholic beverages are sold for consumption on
the premises.'

(Is that a great country or what? Well, not as great as Guam !)
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Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories an hour.

(Who volunteers for this stuff?)
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Humans and dolphins are the only species that have sex for pleasure.

(Is that why Flipper was always smiling?)
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The ant can lift 50 times its own weight, can pull 30 times its own
weight and always falls over on its right side when intoxicated.

(From drinking little bottles of???)
(Did the government pay for this research??)
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Butterflies taste with their feet.

(Ah, geez.)
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An ostrich's eye is bigger than its brain.

(I know some people like that.)
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Starfish don't have brains.

(I know some people like that, too.)
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And, the best for last?
Turtles can breathe through their butts.

(And I thought I had bad Breath in the morning!)

If you donate you will be added to the list below!!!

Gifts from Shadow woods-
Momo-(I named her Forbidden Silence!! yay!)
Orly-(THANK YOU SO MUCH!!)
KoNfUzEd ToE SoX-(YAY!!! Suppor my colorfulness!!)
Gold promise ring-(I PROMISE TO LOVE YOU FOREVER!!!)
Mythrill armor-(HAHA! I have armor to keep me safe!)
Firestorm dragon gown-(I love this gown.... its so comfy!)
Western Zodiac- (YAY! NOW I HAVE A WEAPON!)
Blushing Bride's Veil
Blushing Bride's Embroidered Skirt
Blushing Bride's Embroidered Bodice
(I feel like a bride now!!!! XP)
Gifts from Kagi Yami-
Gold promise ring- (I PROMISE TO BE THE BEST SISTER EVER!)

Donated by Saukura Haruno-
Chubbi Chicky-(Its so cute and cubbifyed!!!)


i really wish i could look like this some day....


Total Value: 149,275 Gold
After Exclusions: 20,971 Gold
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Item List:
Blushing Bride's Embroidered Bodice
Blushing Bride's Embroidered Skirt
Western Zodiac
Blushing Bride's Veil
Gold Promise Ring
MoMo the Monkey
Prism Butterfly Mantilla
Autumn Glory


Total Value: 46,812 Gold
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Item List:
MoMo the Monkey
Red Riding Hood
Red Heartbreaker Jacket
Leafy Tavern Wench's Bustier
Leafy Tavern Wench's Cincher
Magical Girl's Purple Uniform