wow you amaze me your the most awesomest person ever in spite of my imperfections smile thank god i met you,you probably wont get this but you will be told again and again in person smile thank you so much for everything. your making me realize im not the only one who feels this way and that im not alone, i will say a prayer for you tonight like a always do smile thank you again smile hope to see you soon!!! smile
Hey, it's been a while since I came to your profile. Just thought I would stop by here and leave some love. I care about you a lot, you know.
I know you don't get on here, so it's kind of like cheating that I post something on here and think that you'll just read it "someday" when I don't know if that day is tomorrow or in a month or three months...
I just don't know sometimes. I guess I'm just getting scared a lot. I'm scared I don't see you much, I'm scared I don't talk to you enough, I'm scared I don't text you enough...and I'm scared I bother you too much. I'm always scared that I'm bugging you and making you love me less by doing something stupid. I do stupid things a lot. But I always try my best to correct the wrongs I've done.
I get scared when you don't text me back. I'm scared that I made you mad somehow, or that maybe I seemed mad or if I should just text you again, but I don't want to be in the way. I know you're busy a lot and I know you don't have a lot of free-time. I know it's hard not having a job and not being able to get your license. I know it's hard not having money and being stuck in that house. I know that I don't know the extent of how hard it is. But just know that I will do anything and everything I can to make your life better. I would put myself in harm's way if I was sure I would be able to make you happy. I know you don't want me in harm's way, but I would be there if I thought I would be able to get something or do something that would bring a smile to your face.
One day, Bobby. One day, I hope so much to see a true smile on your face. Everyone has a true smile, one that isn't forced or thought of before it appears among facial features. I am so determined to bring you the joy of a true smile. I want you to be so full of elation and jubilation that you don't even realize you are smiling. I'm determined because, I think that, if a person sees the true smile of another, then you see more than just the smile. You see a person's depth and character in that smile. You see what kind of person they are.
I know I used to say all the time that you wouldn't like the real me once you got to know me. But here we are, more than a year after I began saying that to you, and you and I are still together. I don't think you know how happy that makes me. I was so afraid to fall in love when we first started dating. I was a total commitment-phobe. (hahaha) But you always showed such devotion when you said that you wanted me near you always. And I took heart from that. I fell in love. I'm still in love. I love you with all of my heart, Bobby.
When you said that you felt us drifting apart a little, I was so scared. I knew that we had reversed roles. I'm scared of them reversing again, but I'm hoping they will. I remember how fresh and sweet things were less than a year ago. I remember the devotion and smiles (even if you had to think about them) you gave me, and I remember how hopeless I felt when I was afraid that maybe it wouldn't last. For me, it will be for ever. I hope it is the same for you. You have told me it would be before. I know that change is not always a kind thing. I just hope that your feelings for me haven't changed too much in the past year.
To me, our relationship has never been only about the physical affection we show to each other. (I admit, I'm still in a bit of a clingy phase.) It has been the connection we've shared on levels of the mind and soul. Our ideals,our beliefs, our superstitions, our lifestyles; no matter how different or alike they are, I have enjoyed very much compromising with you. I know that we may not yet live together for a year or more, but I am still hoping that we can soon. I hope very much that we will be able to wake up to each other every day and take turns making breakfast and cleaning and doing laundry and all that other stuff I'm sure I'll get tired of (except waking up with you; I could
hey its me. your never on but id thought id say hi lol hope to see you sometime woo!! lol i need to call you sometime and see if you can come to my consert im playing tenner sax im excited lol i feel like im talking to a brick wall ha ha. finally i got money to buy your christmas present i hope its better than last year lol stupid mp3 player lol woo i laugh alot. the tenner sax is like half my body ITS big! lol but im not small im fun size lol ok im small o well. well i need to get ready im going to the church to sing and practice 4 tommrrow smile btw your an amazing friend. thanks 4 talking to me earlyer this week and made my week some what better lol lets hope next week doesn't suck lol ok thaks bobby byes! smile
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