Eagle,
I sent this to you because I don't want Sam to be able to reply to me. If she even would reply. I guess I also want you to read through it for things that would upset her before she reads it. And I want to write to you as well.
I've done some pretty bad things during our two/three year friendship, and I wanted to tell you sorry to your(cyber)face. This is the last letter I'll ever send your way, and I'd like you to be able to believe that I'm sincere, but I'm sure it's hard. (Unless I publish a book or something, then I promised Sam a copy of it through mail.) Eagle... I don't really know what to say to you, because you're thickheaded. I'm thickheaded, too, you know. So I'm pretty sure you won't believe any of these fancy words. I'm sorry, Eagle, and that's all I can really say or do.
Have you ever wanted something
so bad, but you couldn't have it?
I do today. :/
I really want to talk to you, Sam, but I know I can't. Even if I had a chance of ever being able to talk to you after you severed the friendship, I ruined it sometime after that. I'm selfish. I never realized that, until recently.
Brandon said to me that friends don't need to talk every day(even though he admitted himself that it would be nice to be more than that), but I never saw that with you. I demanded attention every day of your life for three years.
And I'm sorry.
I know you've heard it before, but I want you to know I'm sincere about it. I know nothing can take us back to how we were, and nothing can make us any better. I just want you to know I'm sorry.
Recently, I've attempted getting into your accounts again. I don't know why I do it, but I do. But my attempts were futile. I won't try it again, although you have absolutely no reason to believe me.
The one thing that would have been so great was if you had actually kept up with me every once in a while. You know, ask me how I've been and all? Any chance at that was destroyed when I hacked you, but before that? You totally could have. I could have, too, though. So you aren't the only one.
I took the uncivilized route about things. I can't say you were the best at it, either. Especially Eagle, whom was rather cruel at times. (Like I can blame him.)
I'm sorry for all of the horrible things I've done to you, and to Eagle. (Although, I might not mean it as much in Eagle's case. :/ But nevertheless, I'm a little sorry about the things I did towards him.)
So, uh, while I was "perusing" through google, I saw a post you made on AQW forums, and it included "my fiance and I". I suppose I should congratulate you about that. I don't know the whole story or anything, but don't marry him straight out of school or something. Live with him for at least a year first, okay? I know a lot of marriages that could have made it if they had lived together first. You just got to give it time to know what he's really like. No matter how real it seems, you do only know him from the internet, so be careful anyway.
You don't have to live with him first, but I think it would be the best before you made a huge commitment like that.
P.S.
I'm sending you this through my newest Gaia account, Eagle. You can watch it all you want, do anything to it, but it won't really matter to me much. I'll even give you the password if it'd make you feel even. The password to it is rosabella4. It's foolish of me to give it to you, but what are pixels in worth? Not much. I have a "wedding gift" for you.
I took that not that long ago from my front porch. Those are my roses and foxgloves. They're very pretty, and I'd like you to have it. I've entered a similar one in a Reader's Digest contest, but not the same one, so don't worry about copyrights or anything. I just thought that since her favorite color was red, and your's was blue(the foxgloves are more of a soft blue-purple on the inside), that they would be perfect.
