Dear Diary

Mood: Apathetic

My life is spiraling downward
I couldn't get enough money to go to the Blood Red Romance and Suffocate Me Dry concert
It sucks cause they play some of my favorite songs like "Stab My Heart Because I Love You" and "Rip Apart My Soul" and of course "Stabby Rip Stab Stab" And It doesn't help that I couldn't get my hair to do that flippy thing either...Like that guy from that band can do...Some days, ya know...

I'm an emo kid, non-conforming as can be.
You'd be non-conforming too if you looked just like me
I have paint on my nails and makeup on my face
I'm almost emo enough to start shaving my legs
Cause I feel real deep when I'm dressing in drag
I call it freedom of expression, most just call me a f**
'Cause our dudes look like chicks, and our chicks look like dykes
Cause emo is one step below transvestite

Stop my breathing and slit my throat
I must be emo

I don't jump around when I go to shows
I must be emo

I'm dark and sensitive with low self esteem
The way I dress makes everyday feel like Halloween
I have no real problems but I like to make believe
I stole my sister's mascara now I'm grounded for a week
Sulking and writing poetry are my hobbies
I can't get through a hawthorne heights album without sobbing
Girls keep breaking up with me, it's never any fun
They say they already have a p***y, they don't need another one.

Stop my breathing and slit my throat
I must be emo

I don't jump around when I go to shows
I must be emo

Dye in my hair and polish on my toes
I must be emo

I play guitar and write suicide notes
I must be emo

my life is just a black abyss... ya know..it's so dark. And it's suffocating me, grabbing a hold of me and tightening its grip, tighter than a pair of my little sisters jeans...which look great on me by the way.

When I get depressed I cut my wrist in every direction
Hearing songs about getting dumped gives me an erection
I write in a live journal and wear thick rimmed glasses
I tell my friends I bleed black and cry during classes
I'm just a bad, cheap imitation of goth
You can read me "Catcher in the Rye" and watch me jack off
I wear skin tight clothes while hating my life
If I said I like girls, I'd only be half right.

I look like I'm dead and dress like a homo
I must be emo

Screw Xbox I play old school Nintendo
I must be emo

I like to whine and hate my parentals
I must be emo

Me and my friends all look like clones
I must be emo

My parents don't get me ya know
They think I'm gay just because they saw me kiss a guy... Well, a couple guys. But, I mean it's the 2000's. Can't 2...or 4 dudes make out with each other without being gay?
I mean, chicks dig that kind of thing anyways.
I don't know diary, sometimes I think you are the only one that gets me. You're my best friend.




I feel like tacos


HAHA! i was listening to it randomly :3 xD

~Chibi/Cheri~

Everytime I need someone there i turn around and shes standing there already crying with me. She makes me laugh and i wouldnt trade her for the world, shes beutiful and ALWAYS there. shes honest with me and i tell her all my dirty little secrets >3. We laugh at each other's blondeness. I'd kill anyone who hurt her because i know she would for me. She looks out for me and I wouldn't be me without her. She reminds me everyday that looks arnt everything, and that im pretty just being me. Thank you Cheri ~I Love My Sister~

"Sleep Like An Angel...Eat Like A Monster"

"Dont Worry, There Are Alot of Smart Blondes, Look At Paris Hilton"
-Cheri

My Photography

me =] <3

on my counter

Happy by Never Shout Never

You make me happy whether you know it or not
We should be happy that's what I said from the start
I am so happy knowing you are the one
That I want for the rest of my days
For the rest of my days
You're all of my days

You're lookin' so cool you're lookin' so fly
I can't deny that when I'm staring
You down right dead in the eye
I wanna try to be the person you want
The person you need
It's hard to conceive
That somebody like you could be with
Someone like me

I'm happy knowing that you are mine
The grass is greener on the other side
The more I think the more I wish
That we could lay here for hours and just reminisce
Uh oh oh

You're lookin so fresh
It's catching my eye
Why oh why did I not see this before
The girl I adore was right in front of me
And now I'll take a step back and look in your eye
And ask why it took so long to see
Were meant to be

I'm happy knowing that you are mine
The grass is greener on the other side
The more I think the more I wish
That we could lay here for hours and just reminisce

On the good, the bad, the ugly
The smiles, the laughs, the funny,
Or all the things we put each other through
It's for you for you for you

You make me happy whether you know it or not
We should be happy that's what I said from the start
I am so happy knowing you are the one
That I want for the rest of my days
For the rest of my days

I'm happy knowing that you are mine
The grass is greener on the other side
The more I think the more I wish
That we could lay here for hours and just reminisce

~reminds me of him~

Walk Through Hell - Say Anything

And if I could swim
I'd swim out to you in the ocean,
Swim out to where you were floating
in the dark.
And if was blessed
I walk on the water you're breathing,
To lend you some air for that heaving
Sunken chest.
'Cause they chose you
As the model
For their empty little dreams.
With your new head
And your legs spread
Like a filthy magazine.
And they hunt you
And they gut you
And you give in.

And if I was brave
I'd climb up to you on the mountain.
They led you to drink from their fountain
Spouting lies.
And I'd slay
The horrible beast they commissioned
To steer me away from my mission
To your eyes,
And I'd stand there
Like a soldier
With my foot upon his chest.
With my grin spread
And my arms out
In my bloodstained Sunday's best,
And you'd hold me
I'd remind you
Who you are...
Under their shell..

I'd walk through hell for you.
Let it burn right through my shoes.
These soles are useless without you.
Through hell for you
Let the torturing ensue.
My soul is useless without you

And if they sent a whirlwind,
I'd hug it like a harmless little tree.
Or an earthquake,
I'd calm it,
And I'd bring you back to me,
And I'd hold you
In my weak arms like a first born.

I'd walk through hell for you.
Let it burn right through my shoes.
These soles are useless without you.
Through hell for you
Let the torturing ensue.
My soul is useless without you (through hell for you)

(through hell for you) without you
Without you (through hell for you)
Without you (through hell for you)

Now, I've walked through hell for you,
What's an adventurer to do
But rest these feet at home with you

This Isnt Mine,
but it sure ish cute
:3

Haha I <3
near.
lol not
as much as
i love you
tho baby <3

No matter whos pushed me or saved me and didnt ask for a savior back, no matter whos desired something and pushed others and hated them, as I sit here watching u get ready to fall know that ill be there to catch u with my love because in the end your my friends and family even if it kills me, ill be there for u in all the ways I can, and to the girl I want to spend the rest of my life with, yes u yes u rikki, ill be here to stand with u forever through the hardness and toughness of life, if I ever fail u tell me and ill fix it, all u could do is make me happy..because in the end no one can make me smile, make me laugh, make me happy, or be the girl of my dreams
forever and always with love...
by: Justin Strickland..

I'll sing along to every song
I type a lie for the ride
Cause in my head,
I'm right there tonight,
Through the good times
The bad ones too
I'm here for you
Cause in my dreams
You're the one who keeps me asleep
On the nights where I can care less
If I ever woke up again

"overtheyears" by NeverShoutNever

There's a hole in the world
like a great black pit and it's
filled with people
who are filled with s**t
and the vermin of the world inhabit it.