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vampireflux Report | 06/13/2011 5:10 am

Haha, wow, how the years change us all. It's been at least 3 or 4 years since I used this. I'm gonna write something to you, more than anything to get it off my chest. I know you won't see this, and even if you eventually did, it wouldn't really make a difference. I just want to state it. If you ever do read this though, I hope it at least gives you a decent laugh. Or a smile, depending on your outlook.





We both grew up. You're already older than I ever was when we were together. As fate would have it, we broke up, went our separate ways, and did what we did. Haha, it really makes me chuckle at how naive we (or at least I was) were when we dated, thinking there could be nothing without each other. After much difficulty, I got over you and you over me (though with how much difficulty or lack of it I do not know). I never ended up throwing any of the things you gave me, all the letters, gifts, details, all those little (and sometimes big [ remember that huge card in a huge envelope you sent me once? Hah, still have it ] ) things you were so fond of giving/receiving. At first, I held on to those things because I was devastated and scared. I was scared to let go, and I didn't want to. But I knew I had to. After a few months from when we broke up that final time, I could say I got over you, and I gradually started to become indifferent in regards to your whereabouts. Now, years have gone by, and still, those gifts and letters sit inside my closet, though now for a completely different reason. Over time, I came to understand what my shortcomings in our relationship were, and I understood why our break up was inevitable. As we both grew up, I had to accept and become comfortable with the fact that we were both going our separate ways, and I did. 





Today, I still don't throw away those letters and gifts; But only to remember the good times by. I have seen how you fell in love with someone else, and in all honesty, I was fine with it. Sure, somewhere deep inside me was a faint reaction, but it was more along the lines of nostalgia than those of jealousy or pain. Nostalgia, that's why I keep the letters. It's not an attachment to you, or the letters, not at all. I'm simply nostalgic for the good times (cause they weren't all bad times) that once were, the companionship and affection we once shared. The letters are just the method by which I get to reminiscing about those days.





Once every seven or so months I'll remember that those letters are sitting there, and I reread them, just for the sake of the memories. I gotta admit, it still amazes me everytime I read them, the amount of affection which you'd show through what you'd write, and how highly you held me. Te acuerdas la cajita esa que nos hicimos a cada quien, y que estavan todas decoradas y asi? Haha, todavia la tengo, ahi guardo todo eso. Cada que leo las cartas, aun me hacen sonreir, aunque claro, estando conciente que ya es algo del pasado. Aveces hasta una pequeña risa con una pisca de tristesa/nostalgia por nosotros en aquel entonces se me escapa, mientras pienso, "Si tan solo supieramos todo lo que estava por suceder.."





It's amazing, how naive we were, and yet how decided we were for one another. Me creirias si te digo que aun huele al perfume que usavas? I swear, I smell it and the memories flood in. Haha, ahh, no manches, como cambian las cosas. Ahora tu andas, y yo se que eres feliz. Y la verdad, estoy comodo con eso. Me da gusto que seas feliz. Por mas qe nos alejemos el uno del otro, sinceramente siempre te voy a desear lo mejor, aunque yo ni por la mente te llegue a cruzar. Cuando te veo, honestamente no me causa molestia ni dolor que andes. Pero siempre voy a sentir esa pequenia nostalgia, y como que al mero fondo de mi persona, te extraño un poco. Obviamente significaste mucho para mi en un punto, y por mas que pasen los años, siempre vas a llevar contigo una pequeña parte de mi .





Yo se que llegara el dia cuando te vere casarte con alguen mas, (como s

Hi Im Reiko Report | 10/31/2007 6:59 pm

Wtf. Are you of age?

Cuntastic Muffin Report | 08/29/2007 5:32 pm

Lol random comment.

You have a skull on your boob. xD

high-c24 Report | 06/25/2007 5:53 pm

thnx

yours is pretty too smile ))

so how have u bn???<3

high-c24 Report | 06/25/2007 5:21 pm

Lizzie, how come you havent accepted me?

yes its ponaa<3 poopie face:]

The Ganner Ranvier Report | 06/21/2007 2:16 pm

Be a regular at the travern again but its dead and will remain that way.Plus Prios is gone...

dark_angel_3 Report | 01/06/2007 11:09 pm

hello ^^

dark_angel_3 Report | 09/24/2006 6:14 pm

LIZZ!!!!

Savoki Sanoci Report | 08/23/2006 11:09 am

If look like that at 13 by the time your 18 killing guys lol.

Ryu Deepse Report | 08/21/2006 5:59 pm

youre ugly