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we are like a clear night sky, the darkness may out number the light but most often its not the darkness u notice but the shining bright stars. chaos blames himself for our darkness and so believes he himself is evil, however, he is the shining star that overpowers our darkness. he just doesnt want to see it.
pheonix

words of wisdom for anyone who cares to listen, never EVER trust anyone completely. not your best friends, not me, not even yourself. you can trust yourself and others to an extent but never completely because you'll always get hurt. iv hurt many people because they trust me too much, and no dought i'll hurt many more. i tell them that the trust is misplaced but they dont listen, just like chaos didnt listen to her when she told him not to trust her. even i trust people way too much. we all do, and most of the time we cant help it, but if you can help it then good. you'll feel a lot less pain in this world. this truth is very sad and most "opptimists" wont like to listen to this but unfortunately this is a cruel world where even the ones u love will turn on u. i dont like this particular truth and i hope that one day it'll change, but as of now, it is the truth
pheonix


we take our power from the darkness and then use that power against the very same darkness. we are a demon that works for god, against our own kind. we are a black light, a walking contradiction, darkness with a star as its core. we r srtong bcuz we use our opponents' power against them. we r the demon
CHAOS!!!!

people r always asking, "if u could have a super power, wat would it b??" they're always saying something like, "super speed" or "super strength" or "super smart." but i nvr understood something. if ur gonna have a super power, y not have them all??? with a single super power u could do EVERYTHING. it's so obvious 2 me that one should want the ability 2 control evry kind of energy in existence. with that ability u could shape atoms, create worlds, dissapear, teleport, fly, cross dimensions, ANYTHING. u'd b as close 2 a god as anything, except god. speeking of whom, i have often wondered wat it's like 2 b god. iv come 2 the conclusion that it must b extremely boring. i mean think about it. if someone was a god, sure, they could do anything, but wen uv finished doing all the things u want 2 do (which, if ur a god, thrs no point in doing anyway), then wat?? u cant die a happy death, ur just thr . . . just existing. u'd have 2 exist without caring ab anything cuz evrything ends, except u. u could change that fact but then chaos and violence would follow. u could try playing the role of a super hero or something but it would b no challenge, u could take them out without evn thinking ab it, and toying with criminals would get old after a while. u could b the criminal, but again, it would get old. evry now and then u might feel like changing the routine and actually caring ab something, but once that something ends, u'd have 2 shut down again. it must b very hard 2 b a god, bcuz then, evrything means absolutely nothing, it might as well not exist.

then i strt wondering, "y DO we exist??" i mean, we were created out of a void of Nothing. we shouldnt evn b possible. but 2 answer that ? i need 2 say WHAT i believe God is. u c, im not a conventional "christian." i have a rather athiest view on my "christian" religion, so i dont think i'd technically b called a christian. my view is very, down 2 this realm, semi-physical and absolutely no "supernatural," it's all based on collective (if not substanciated but plausible) knowledge and random pieces that iv put 2gether. u c, i believe God isnt a creature but the consious thot behind all of the energy in evry existence evr created. God IS in evrything, it IS evrything, God is IN and IS me, u, this computer, the trees outside, an alternate universe bcuz enrgy runs thru all of those things, and God IS all energy. this is y i also believe that god created us, we exist, so that god could live thru us. gods existence meant nothing, it just existed. so god created us, gave existence 2 reality, not only 2 watch, manipulate us, and entertain it, but also 2 live as us, feel as we feel, so that it could love, hold, touch, and truly exist thru us. in short, we exist souly for the purpose of existing, so that god isnt lonely, and at the same time, we r all pieces of God itself, meaning u, me, the tree, everything. this could b the reason for all of god's creatures existence.

iv known 4 a very long time that trying 2 find love is a hopeless journey. it simply doesnt exist, not in this world, not the love that we look 4. so y do people give their entire lives in search of it, hoping 2 find it??? i dont understand, its pointless. nothing but pain exists in this world and there's no higher purpose 4 our existence, so what's the point in living at all??? i understand and know all of this 2 b tru, so y do i still want 2 live??? y do i still want 2 find love when i no that the search will only bring far more excrutiating pain than wat i already have being alone??? is it simply instinct??? the only reason we live could b bcuz of our survival instinct and we HOPE that thrs a higher purpose, even delude ourselves into completely believing in it simply bcuz of that instinct so that this painful world doesnt drive us 2 killing ourselves so that god can still have our company. mabey our search 4 love is so that we can find some1 that might help lessen the pain, not bcuz we truly love them, simply 2 escape the fate of this world.