Life is never good for me and this is what I wish you'd see. Just let me end it all for I'll be happy in the end, I'll finally be free. Free from all the pain and torment and the never ending battle. No more dealing with the arguments and tears, I'd finally be through with it all. You just don’t seem to understand that by keeping me here your making it worse. If I were dead and gone by now I'd be happy, I wouldn’t have this life, I wouldn't have the curse. I’m already considering doing this even without your consent. I know for sure that once its all over with my heart will finally be content. So here I am just sitting there, on my bed with a knife to my wrist. Please everyone don’t be upset, please don’t be pissed. You just need to know I love you all but couldn’t handle it anymore. Ok here I go, I’m doing this for sure. You just need to let me go to heaven now, hopefully God will understand and accept this. Just tell my baby I love him and I’m sorry I couldn’t give him one last kiss. Tell everyone I love them and that I'm sorry I had to go so soon and leave them all behind. But I just needed to end it all and start a new life so happiness I could find. These are the last words I'll ever be writing down. I know they are harsh but don’t worry, rest your head, be at ease, don’t make a sound. Know that I love you and always have but I need to think of me right now and so I said goodbye. Be happy without me and know that I'm somewhere good, somewhere up high. I just hope your not crying, I want you to know everything will be ok. I'll be watching over you and listening to what you have to say. Just have patience, wait till the day, and I'll see you up here in heaven and we can be together. Except this time things will be better and you'll see me happy, always and forever. So stop your weeping and know this was the best thing for me It was my time to go, your time to set me free.