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Life is hard to explain, hard to describe. I like to believe that life isn't a series of events of pain, of laughter, of light, of darkness. It isn't even a series of coincidences or accidents. Life is simply what I believe as an unexplainable, unbelievable events planned out before us whether people will choose to believe it or not.I really feel that there is something missing in my life. I don't feel complete. My life is very dull and I wish that it was more exciting. I feel as if being happy equals to me buying materialistic items. Hmm, spending cash for happiness. I have no friends that can make me happy enough. Everyone I meet is the same. I say "hi" and they say "hi" when I say nothing, they say nothing. It's very dull. What happened to the very energetic and talkative people? I'm not content and I feel like I have already finished with my life; even so, I don't want to die yet. Right now, I don't even know how to act in a relationship. What is a relationship? What do you do in a relationship? What can I do to make my life more exciting? What can you do if you don't like doing anything?
I feel incomplete and it's making me low and mellow right now.
It's just like, there's nothing to look forward to anymore, you know?
Why do I feel like I'm in a irrational cycle?
Love is a different story, something we can choose, something we can distrust, something we can abuse, and do abuse. Love is everything we wish for and more, yet why do we choose to light the fire of losing it? I've lost my trust for love twice, and I believe that I will rightfully find it again.
Gay. Am I gay? Why yes, I am, why do you ask? Will this change the way you'll think of me? Am I more of a hazard to you now? Are you branding me, are you thinking of something that you won't say out loud yet think to yourself, a disbelief and a shock and a bizarre feeling at the same time? Do you wish to walk away from me because you can't accept it? You'll accept it, but you'll never know what it means to be homosexual until you've finally experience it. And we all know you are not going to ever experience it because you're shielded from it, a look of disgust uprising from your face. This is not okay to me. I'm not okay with you. I rather delete you from my life than to know that you'll never think of me as an equal.
Less on the serious notes, more of a simple rundown of me now.
I'm from Richmond, BC, Canada. I swim with polar bears and I eat maple syrup everyday. neutral
I'm a vegetarian. That means I don't eat meat. I don't eat eggs either. Are you going to stick a chicken fetus up your mouth? Yeah, I thought so.
Orange and green are my favourite skittles. Any other colors I give to the pigs, I mean, my friends.
I dislike giving any personal information because you'll use it against me. I can't even show you how I look like because you'll judge me even more so.
I believe in change, but to a certain extent. If you change how I look like, how I eat, how I talk, you are not respecting my human rights nor my judgments nor my lifestyle. Change is to a minimum until I realize you're not a friend. You're a hostile enemy with nothing but words that will never be listened to.
I try to keep friends, but I lose them faster than I make them.
I don't sound like an a*****e everyday, I try to be a better person. No wait, I try to make others better people.
I have fun too. It's just that numbers are my life. I rather recite the numbers of pi than to talk with annoying thirteen year olds with no life besides video games.
I'm a hypocrite. I play video games too. I am excellent with the A button.
I'm an intellect, ******** you. cool
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If you get on sometime, PM me.
I asked for proof.
You are a male right?
Ugh.
I haven't been on in forever.
I've missed you.
Get one AIM soon.
and fail, too. =)
But I can say you are supah cool.
<3
Because I'm just lame like dat. 8D
Superb.
Hanging out with people <3
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how you doin
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