If you're struggling with depression and/or suicidal thoughts the best thing you can do for yourself (if you're able) is to seek professional help.

If you don't have access to a professional (for whatever reason) here are some numbers you can call RIGHT NOW if you need to:

Suicide Hotline: 1-800-273-8255 (24 hour)
National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-SAFE (7233) (24 hour)
National Sexual Assault Hotline: 1-800-656-4673 (24 hour)

There are also online chats you can go on, or you can text a crisis counselor if you feel safer that way.

Please know that you're not alone and there are people who are ready to listen and help you the best they can.

You are loved. You are needed. Please don't give up.