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Hello guys! I miss ya <33 *hugs and kisses everyone*
Just to let you know - I am PERFECTLY ALRIGHT already. ^^ Still recovering, but all passed great and I'll be all healthy in a month or two! ^-^

OH And I found THE BIG LOVE OF MY LIFE!! His name is Angel! And he is my best buddy <3 We are together now in Munich Germany, getting ready to leave for Paris! ^-^

*kisses*

Your Ale



~~GOODBYE~~


Dear friends,

I don?t know how to say it, but? I leave Gaia forever. For the past half year Gaia has become an essential part of my life. It helped? all of you helped me pass through some of the shittest days in my life ? depression, my suicidal attempts, being left, broke, used ? I passed through everything thanks to all of you? Role-playing helped me keep my mind and thoughts away from the painful reality I live in? But this is no longer like this. Because lately everything makes me feel bad. All I have always wanted is happiness and all I have always got is tears and pain. And I am not one who can take this kind of pressure for too long? And I was just told that I am sicker than I thought. Not only have TB, but the reason for me losing over 50lbs in three weeks and me not being able to eat or drink anything is that I have stomach cancer as well? I have to be operated but they can't operate me now because i'm too weak and iwon't make it if they do it now.. but they have to operate me because its serous so they will try to fix me somewhat with the tb and hope that i wont get worse and i cant have the meds for it because i take the tb ones so.. its gonna be just hope? ....

With some of you I got really close. Closer than I have ever been to anyone in the real life. Thank you. You were my family when my real one left me. I love you. I will always remember you.

With others I only role-played. Thank you for everything. RPing with you saved me from losing my mind in the darkness of depression. Many times our RPs stopped me from leaving Gaia, but? I? can?t anymore. I loved the RPs and I still do ? all of them are very dear to me? Thank you.

I have never thought that I will leave Gaia? I?ve been here for over three years. I had many friends, but none as close and dear as the ones I got with this account. All of you became my family. I am sorry if I have been a whiner or a brat or an emo sometimes? most of the time? Sorry for being what I was. I wish I were a better friend.

But it is time to move on. Nothing keeps me here anymore. I had four people I fell for here. One was never available as he had a rl partner.
The other? he became my older brother and I will love him forever <3
The third? He is a part of the reason I am leaving Gaia and my whole internet life. No matter how much he hurt me, I hurt him as well for which I am sorry. I will always love him no matter what. And I just can?t bare the thought that he is with someone else right now? I just can?t? I loved him and I still do and I will always love him and remember him, but I just can?t see him and his present bf, because everything reminds me of him and I just can?t anymore? I love him too much and he himself told me that he had no love for me anymore? And this thought is killing me? My heart aches as it has never ached before and I have been through so much? I?m sorry. I will love you always?I hope you don?t hate me?
And the fourth person? he was here for the longest time ? never left me, never hurt me, always a friend. You will be a very special to me always! I love you. I?m sorry for everything I caused you. I love you. I love you and I wish things were different? don?t hate me? I love you?

But I've made my mind. I'm leaving Gaia and the one I truly, madly loved on it... Leaving everything and everybody. I will continue my treatment, because I want to live? If I get beter I will be operated in the end of August? if I am still alive till then?And if I survive? I will take my exams and, hopefully, and I will move on, going to a university somewhere, I will start a new life - away from my family who left me and hurt me, my ex rl bf who left me, lied to me and hurt me, my ex Gaia bf who left and hurt me, but whom I still love and I will always do, my rl friends, who betrayed me, and my gaian friends, who were always here for me. I will start everything from the beginning, alone as I have always been in the real life... If I survive?

If you want to contact me, need someone to talk to about anything, I will keep my e-mail so you can write me there alexei_lyon@hotmail.com I?ll as well check my PMs often and I will keep my msn which is the same as my e-mail?

Gods? I feel as if I am saying goodbye to my family? but this is what you are to me ? the greatest family one can have?

Thank you? All of you? Thank you for being here for me when I needed you. I wish to all of you your dreams to come true. To be happy. To be loved. And never to pass through what I did.

It was an honor to know all of you.

*bows to all of you*

Sincerely yours forever,
Alexei


P.S.
I'm sorry for leaving our RPs like this...
Don't forget me, because I will never forget you.

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Meeatu

Report | 10/01/2010 7:45 pm

Meeatu


Hi, you don't know me, but I just glanced over your profile,
and it made me want to say:
Good to hear that people can have happy endings after they go through hell.
Well done for coming out the other side unscathed.
You have my respect :]
A Sexy Muffin

Report | 04/17/2009 5:48 pm

A Sexy Muffin

:O ill join later k? xD
Alexei_Lyon

Report | 11/26/2007 4:15 am

Alexei_Lyon

Thank you everyone <3

I am doing great irl!
DARKNESS -release me-

Report | 07/13/2007 11:38 pm

DARKNESS -release me-

Hello, darling, so glad to hear everything seems alright with you now.

<3



It's been so long since I've been on here, and I was concerned about you.

But now I see that everything's alright! -smiles and waves to-



Send me a message sometime, if you'd like.



-Siru-chan
Celenna

Report | 03/01/2007 9:18 am

Celenna

Stopping by for an hello from an old friend
I hope you're doing well now
xxx
BeautifulDirt

Report | 09/08/2006 6:22 pm

BeautifulDirt

It's a good thing you're okay, Alex-chan. I just wish I wasn't gone so long (I always have to miss something Alex-chan related it seems O_O)
Ali-boo

Report | 08/17/2006 1:07 pm

Ali-boo

Aww... Good luck. ^_^ I'm happy for you!
The_Last_Angel_On_Earth

Report | 07/19/2006 12:01 am

The_Last_Angel_On_Earth

Hello, people. I just talked with Ale. He is being released today at 9ish EST and he promised that he will come online on MSN and AIM at about 11-11.30 am EST for about an hour. If you can - come talk to him or send him a pm, he will finally be able to reply!!! *makes the happy happy dance*

And... Errr.. ^^'' Vote for me <33

http://www.gaiaonline.com/avatararena/index.php?mode=vote&postid=2927&key=56rgz6
Master Rikuu

Report | 07/14/2006 12:19 am

Master Rikuu

Yay. I'm glad you're better. I just got back from Oahu! It wasn't that great...Well I hope to talk to you soon, if you get on MSN. Ciao
Nyt of the Moon

Report | 07/12/2006 12:33 am

Nyt of the Moon

.: does the glad that Ale is okay dance : .
Yay!!
.: pouts :.
But I just wont ever get to talk to him again
.: does the sad that Ale is leaving song :.

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