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When I said I was going to write a few journal entries now that I was back on Gaia, I didn't have 2 a day in mind. But I was inspired. You see, the Gaia world has heard no mention of my current boyfriend (maybe there's a correlation there. Since I've been dating I've had no time to be on Gaia. blaugh ) But in any case, yeah. Here starts the probably long, boring entry that is mostly being written entirely for me, so I can read over it later and be all, "yeah. Totally."
As if that last sentence made any sense to anyone but me. But anyway...
I never really thought of myself as a relationship girl. When all my other friends were obsessing about dating I was pretty happy with not being asked out. (deep down, of course, were the fears that there was a REASON I had never dated anyone, like there was something wrong with me) But mostly I was good with being single and thought that being in a relationship had no redeeming qualities at that point in my life. So, a couple years went by and still nothing on that front, but not for a lack of trying by other parties. That aspect of my life was really messed up for a while, I wasn't sure what I wanted, or what people (well, really just one person) wanted from me, and I was just generally confused.
Then, when I decided to stop looking, someone popped up in my life, right out of the blue. At first it seemed inconsequential, whatever, but finally for the first time in my life when an opportunity of this nature presented itself I carpe diem-ed it. Unlike normal, when I would think, "oh my god what if it doesn't work out or what will my parents/friends think about it or what if we end up hating each other", when I found out that this new acquaintance of mine sort of liked me, I was actually excited. At this point I only thought of him as a friend, but there was possibility for the future. So I just sort of went with the flow, went on a casual date with him, and a little while later when he asked me to be his girlfriend I said yes. I didn't hesitate, or worry or stress, I just did it. Like Nike. Anyway, it turned out to be one of the best decisions of my life. We started dating, and immediately there was no need to impress each other, or worry about what either one of us thought about the other, it just seemed so natural.
Then, about six months later, I found out that someone from my past still had feelings for me, and I was thrown for a loop. I was confused, and consequently became moody and impossible to please with my boyfriend. He was doing his best, still being the same guy that I liked so much, but because I wasn't sure what (or who) I wanted, it was a really rough time. A couple times I got close to ending it, and even waited for him to get frustrated and do something dumb so I would have an excuse to end it. But eventually I ended up doubting the other person, and at some point I realized what a good thing I had going for me. I realized what had originally attracted me to him, and it was like the relationship started over again (in my head anyways.) and it was just like our first dates. Everything was easy and wonderful. And that is pretty much how high school passed. Almost two years later we are still together and so happy.
Well, college is going to be a whole lot more stressful. We are already slightly more irritable with one another, because scheduling difficulties make both of us short tempered. Also we have learned there are a few things that we will never agree upon. However, there is a huge difference between now and then. Me, the girl who thought she probly wouldn't be in a really serious relationship until after she graduated college, has found someone amazing, who I am willing to work out the little or big problems with. It's like having a best friend, boyfriend, and husband all in one. xp (at least we joke that we're practically married. On april fools we both want to change our relationship status on facebook to "engaged" and see how many of our friends realize it is a joke, and how many freak out.) In any case, I feel like I can tell him anything and vice versa, and i want to be around him always, and I am so glad he is a part of my life. I love him. heart
Well I think I am drawing to a close on this uncharacteristically romantic/girly entry. I'm beginning to run out of steam. But basically I think my whole point is that I have changed in ways I never expected, and that I owe part of that to him, and to everyone, really, who has known me... I also think that a younger version of me would be very surprised to see how I turned out.
oh, and, P.S. There weren't names mentioned in this on purpose. blaugh Although if you know me in real life you probably know who I am talking about (my boyfriend, obviously, but also the other guy), and the point of this was not to "confess" but rather to explain, so I protected everyone's privacy. So get over it. razz
Illithya · Tue Aug 26, 2008 @ 11:02pm · 0 Comments |
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Holy cow I have a lot of journal entries. |
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I didn't even realize I used this thing back in the day except more than once or twice, but DAMN! anyway I thought it would be fun to make an entry or two, now that I'm back on Gaia somewhat frequently. I found this journal entry that I have already done twice with different responses, so i thought it would be fun as a first entry in at least a year to do the same.
Little known facts about yours truly:
Current mood: Really, really hyper. New Pleasantly happy. ^_^ New squared: Kinda stressed out by college, and a little sick. but mostly happy.
Current thought: Bush won...... icon_xd.gif New I have to go to school tomorrow... icon_stare.gif New squared: I don't want to go to the bookstore to get the correct english textbook...
What I really want to get: `Switchfoot's new CD(got it) now i want...i dunno. lol New The Spirit soundtrack. WHAT? It has good music! (I love the movie too! icon_heart.gif I'm such a loser. lol) New squared: good question. maybe free gas card? or realistically, coldstone ice cream.
Favorite word: Therefore (I mean, how much does that word rock) New Spiffitastic. That's right. Made it up myself. Isn't it good I was born after Webster? Imagine what the Steller dictionary would be full of... icon_eek.gif New squared: Uh...indeed? I don't know. I'm not really sure what I use a lot of nowadays.
Song that makes me sing/yell the lyrics crazily: "Ocean Avenue" by Yellowcard New none really...but my new musical obsession is Foreigner in general. icon_3nodding.gif New Squared: anything by Atreyu.
The Avatar I really want in this game: Light blue Rave hair, Royal Kimono, Fairy Wings New At the moment, I just want something white for the bottom of my avvi... That's it! New squared: Gaia's new clothes confuse me. I think I'm good with what I have.
Illithya · Tue Aug 26, 2008 @ 10:05pm · 0 Comments |
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My faith in humanity is restored because of... |
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An incident in Walmart, believe it or not. smile It was the perfect end to a great day. I had just hung out with my best friend from elementary school and junior high who I hadn't seen in at least a year, when my mom said we needed to go to Walmart to return something. UGH. You all know what I'm talking about. Returning something at Walmart is like waiting in line for a theme park ride - it takes forever, and after your turn you wonder why you had to wait so long for a 1 minute experience.
So, we were waiting there, and there were two young girls in front of us (early 20s, we found out later) and my mom told one of them that she liked her tattoo. (It was this star thingymabob, and it was on her back by her neck. It was really spiffy.) And then, instead of just saying "Thanks" and that being the end of it, instead she was incredibly polite and both of the girls talked to me and my mom for like 20 minutes while we stood in line. Apparently, one of the girls had just given birth like 5 weeks ago, and she showed us pictures on her cell phone. (Dad was babysitting, at the moment.) And just as we were having fun talking to these two, an elderly woman behind me started talking to me, asking what high school I attended, and I had a conversation with her! She used to be a music teacher at a university in Wisconsin (OMG, that's where I'm from! it was so cool!) and we had a short conversation about choir, and I told her I was going to Carnegie Hall with choir next spring. It was so FUN. I can definately say this is the only time I've ever had fun in the customer service line in any store.
And it restored my faith in humanity, because some people out there are still just genuinely nice and personable. Thank God.
Illithya · Sat Jul 01, 2006 @ 03:16am · 3 Comments |
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What is going on with me... |
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I've been kind of random and sugar high lately, so I don't know if I've actually communicated to anyone what's been going on with me. Yeah. So, if anyone was confused, this SHOULD clear things up.
Okay. Here goes.
So, spring break is this week. I have not had a vacation, nor is one planned. My spring break is lazing around. Yeah! ^^ My favorite hobby! Anyway, next week is back to school for me, but it's only Wednesday, so that's far away according to me.
Yesterday I went to the MVD nearest to me (Motor Vehicle Department) and applied for a driver's permit. I passed. Good thing too, because I would have been PISSED if I had sat around there for 2 hours and not passed.
Today I got my hair cut. I chickened out. xd It's pretty much the same, just shorter. I'm not sure I like it yet. But, I almost never like my haircuts until the next day. It just seems so weird and new on the first day. Plus, I haven't done anything with it. My hair doesn't look to good if it hasn't been straightened or curled, or at least blow-dried. So, hopefully I'll like it better when I do something to it. Yeah. Okay.
I guess that was really all. (Wow, I'm dull. xd ) Anyways... *trails off*
Illithya · Wed Mar 15, 2006 @ 10:11pm · 6 Comments |
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Good times at the bank... |
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My mom had to deposit some money, so after my dentist appointment (My gums STILL hurt, by the way! gonk ), we drove over to the bank. We decided to go through the drive-through. I am always really amazed at the little suction tube that brings up the container with the money or check to the teller. It's just... cool. And these tubes are clear, so you can see the container whoosh through it. My mom was laughing at me about how easily I am amused when the teller told us that she was sorry, that she had sent the wrong receipt to us. So my mom said, "Oh, no problem, my daughter is really amused by the process!" I laughed and told my mom that the teller probably thought I was 5.
So, we had to send the cylinder back, and then it came back to us with the right receipt. The teller asks my mom, "How old is your daughter, do you want some stickers? I can't see from the window." (we were sitting to the left of this huge SUV, we were in the lane second from the left). So my mom says, "She's almost 16," and laughed. And the teller, with a good sense of humor, replies, "Do you want stickers anyway?" Ha ha.
I would have said yes, if they're horse stickiers, but my mom said no first. All my friends want to grow up, however, I'm content to stick with my childhood. ^^
Illithya · Wed Feb 15, 2006 @ 11:41pm · 4 Comments |
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This is too funny not to post here. |
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ONE Recently, when I went to McDonald's I saw on the menu that you could have an order of 6, 9 or 12 Chicken McNuggets. I asked for a half dozen nuggets. "We don't have half dozen nuggets," said the teenager at the counter. "You don't?" I replied. "We only have six, nine, or twelve," was the reply. "So I can't order a half dozen nuggets, but I can order six?" "That's right." So I shook my head and ordered six McNuggets
TWO I was checking out at the local Wal-Mart with just a few items and the lady behind me put her things on the belt close to mine. I picked up one of those "dividers" that they keep by the cash register and placed it between our things so they wouldn't get mixed. After the girl had scanned all of my items, she$picked up the "divider", looking it all over for the bar code so she could scan it. Not finding the bar code she said to me, "Do you know how much this is?" I said to her "I've changed my mind, I don't think I'll buy that today." She said "OK," and I paid her for the things and left. She had no clue to what had just happened.
THREE A lady at work was seen putting a credit card into her floppy drive and pulling it out very quickly. When I inquired as to what she was doing, she said she was shopping on the Internet and they kept asking for a credit card number, so she was using the ATM "thingy."
FOUR I recently saw a distraught young lady weeping beside her car. "Do you need some help?" I asked. She replied, "I knew I should have replaced the battery to this remote door unlocker. Now I can't get into my car. Do you think they (pointing to a distant convenience store) would have a battery to fit this?" "Hmmm, I dunno. Do you have an alarm, too?" I asked. "No, just this remote thingy," she answered, handing it and the car keys to me. As I took the key and manually unlocked the door, I replied, "Why don't you drive over there and check about the batteries. It's a long walk."
FIVE Several years ago, we had an Intern who was none too swift. One day she was typing and turned to a secretary and said, "I'm almost out of typing paper. What do I do?" "Just use copie r machine paper," the secretary told her. With that, the intern took her last remaining blank piece of paper, put it on the photocopier and proceeded to make five "blank" copies.
SIX I was in a car dealership a while ago, when a large motor home was towed into the garage. The front of the vehicle was in dire need of repair and the whole thing generally looked like an extra in "Twister." I asked the manager what had happened. He told me that the driver had set the "cruise control" and then went in the back to make a sandwich.
SEVEN My neighbor works in the operations department in the central office of a large bank. Employees in the field call him when they have problems with their computers. One night he got a call from a woman in one of the branch banks who had this question: "I've got smoke coming from the back of my terminal. Do you guys have a fire downtown?"
EIGHT Police in Radnor, Pa., interrogated a suspect by placing a metal colander on his head and connecting it with wires to a photocopy machine. The message "He's lying" was placed in the copier, and police pressed the copy button each time they thought the suspect wasn't telling the truth. Believing the "lie detector" was working, the suspect confessed.
NINE A mother calls 911 very worried asking the dispatcher if she needs to take her kid to the emergency room, the kid was eating ants. The dispatcher tells her to give the kid some Benadryl and should be fine, the mother says, I just gave him some ant killer..... Dispatcher: Rush him in to emergency!
Illithya · Wed Jan 11, 2006 @ 01:12am · 4 Comments |
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I'm going to rant... So deal with it. |
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Yeah, okay. So, my sister is a really talented artist. She really is, she's absolutely awesome. Her favorite medium is oil painting. She's wonderful at it. I mean, her first ever oil painting was put in a show at the district office, and some guy wanted to buy it. And all it was was flowers. She's that good.
At the risk of sounding arrogant, I will also say that I am a pretty talented artist. (I only say this because other people tell me so; I can find a reason to dislike every single one of my pictures). I however, treat oil paints with disdain. I hate them. They dry WAY too slow for my taste. I like watercolors for paints, and also enjoy pastels, pencil, and colored pencil.
I hate to be one of those people comparing themselves to their siblings, but here goes. Throughout our house, you can see artwork everywhere. Every single room. There are 8 paintings of Janelle's framed and hanging around the house. There are 2 of mine, one in watercolors in my room, and one in pastel. This rant is not aimed at Janelle, she's awesome. In fact, she even gave me a painting of a horse for my birthday one year. I mean, it's not her fault that my parents feel the urge to frame and hang every single picture she does. I think it's a bias against the type of mediums I use. Just because my pictures take a few weeks, as opposed to a few months... I mean... URG! I know this shouldn't bug me, but it really does. And hers, on this fancy canvas...always go to Michaels to get custom frames. After maybe a day or so of being left in the kitchen on the island, my stuff goes to the back of my closet. My closet. Hmm, lets weigh the options - In a pretty frame on the wall, or in one of those huge bags they give you to donate stuff in in the back of my closet.
Okay, I'm done.
Illithya · Tue Jan 10, 2006 @ 02:04am · 4 Comments |
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WHAT did I just agree to?! |
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Yeah, so I was watching Finding Nemo on Thanksgiving, after eating a piece of pumpkin pie. (What could be better, right?) Well, soon my dad came into the room, and said the phone was for me. So, it turned out to be my friend Ben, which isn't a big deal because he calls occasionally. So, he was just rambling on about something that had to do with World of Warcraft, and I really had no idea what he was talking about because I don't play World of Warcraft. So I was just like, "Uh huh, yup," and was still watching Finding Nemo. All of a sudden, he starts talking really fast, like I can't even understand what he's saying, until he says, "So, want to go to Winter Formal with me?"
WHAT?!
Honestly, who calls someone up on the phone, talks about NOTHING, and then all of a sudden asks them to winter formal? WHO?! Well, my friend apparently. And do you know what I said?
"Sure."
That's what I said, SURE!!! Who says SURE after their friend calls them up, talks about nothing, and then all of a sudden asks them to winter formal all of a sudden? Well, me, apparently!
Then, he said, "Really?" and I said, "Yeah." Well, what was I SUPPOSED to say?! "No, just kidding, I'm a b***h!" I mean, come ON! And then the conversation was abruptly turned to some new and random topic. Shortly afterward, I really wanted to get back to Finding Nemo, so I said I had to go and we hung up.
WHAT?!
What does this MEAN exactly?! I mean, we've been friends since the 8th grade. I like him as a friend... but I don't think I actually want to date him...
This whole thing was not cool. I was caught completely off guard. Now what?! gonk
Illithya · Sat Nov 26, 2005 @ 10:08pm · 3 Comments |
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I AM TIRED OF BEING THE SMART ONE!!! |
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Or, at least... the one that everyone seems to THINK is smart. xd This probably stems from the fact that in junior high I usually DID get 100% on everything... because junior high is easy. So, everyone who knew me well in junior high still thinks I am so "smart" and will get 100% on everything. Sounds good, right? Everyone thinking you're smart? NO! It's not good!
Whenever we have a test, quiz, or homework assignment, everyone always asks me how I did. And whenever they did better than I did, I invariably have to put up with the comment "I did better than Brenna?! That's amazing!" It's not that I mind that they did better than me. Everyone has their strengths and weaknesses in school, and I can deal with that. (although, there was a time I would have cried if I got less than a B... those days are long gone.) But, do they have to rub the fact that they did better in my faces? I'm sure they mean it to be a compliment, that they are surprised they did better than me because I usually do so well...but...sometimes I just want to punch them in the face.
When I do better than my friends do I say, "I did better than [insert friend's name here]?! That's amazing!" No, no I don't. I wish that they could treat me the same way I treat them!
Illithya · Tue Nov 08, 2005 @ 12:57am · 3 Comments |
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