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Life is good. All summer is, *thankfully* it's all a big a** ******** party! I haven't been sober for a full 24 hours in.... weeks! Damn I wanted to do e last night....
But I can do it on Friday! w00t! heart
Lady God!va · Wed Jul 27, 2005 @ 05:46pm · 0 Comments |
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Waste some time with you... |
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My new gaia is:
MYSPACE! blitches....
www.myspace.com/ladyflipshit
^^^^^^^^^^check me out
Lady God!va · Thu Jul 07, 2005 @ 08:37pm · 0 Comments |
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I haven't been on this b***h in hella long. Like what? pirate
Lady God!va · Mon Jul 04, 2005 @ 06:54pm · 1 Comments |
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I'm really starting to miss him. I know thats sad but I really do. I'm not like being hella emo about it but, I just miss being able to see him and kiss him when ever I like. And when he held me he made me feel so safe, and I'd give anything for that again. It's so hard to look at him and not hurt, even just a little bit. I don't even see him any more though. Because I would have to go out of my way to walk with him to class, but I miss that. And we never talk on the phone anymore, theres no point for me to call him, he probably wouldn't want to talk to me, and he'd probably tell Freddie I called him, and she'd b***h to me about it. All together, I'd feel like s**t. So, theres no point, but to miss him, and I do.
Quite a bit... </3
Lady God!va · Sun Jun 05, 2005 @ 02:39am · 2 Comments |
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Talk to me, Dance with me. |
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I'm single. And you know what? I DON'T CARE. Because, if I care, it will kill me. Horay for singles!
Lady God!va · Wed Jun 01, 2005 @ 02:39am · 3 Comments |
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I'm going insane. Freddie (Erik's best friend) has told me that Erik is going to break up with me. Tommorrow, well really today. But still. This is SO unexpected. They said I was reeaallllyy attatched. Am I? Am I that clingy? I'm like the worst girlfriend ever, aren't I? Why is this happening to me again? What did I do this time to deserve this? How is this even possible? WHY ME?
Are they going to hate me when this is over? Like last time? Is anything EVER going to get better?
Has he just been trying to avoid me for the past, when ever?
Did he ever love me? Like I loved him?
Doesn't he remember saying we'd get married after high school and have like, that perfect life that never actually happens?
Why is this happening to me again? And, why did I break the promise again? How could I make more scars?
What the hell is wrong with me? Why can't I change and be the person everyone wants me to be?
WHY DO I HAVE SO MANY UN-ANSWERED QUESTIONS?
Lady God!va · Tue May 31, 2005 @ 10:04am · 0 Comments |
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Hahahhaa. Becca's breaking up with Bantu on Sunday. I hope he hurts as bad as I did. He hurt me so incredubly bad. And to think I almost died because of that a*****e. God, he gave me the worst look yesterday. I didn't mean to look at him, he was just there, standing infront of Becca, and his eyes gave me this look like, "I hope the next time you try to commit suicide, it will actually work." I mean, really now, I haven't hurt that bad in a while. And knowing that I waited for Erik at lunch, he went to smoke with Will and Alex. He didn't tell me. So I waited for half an hour. And then saw him once after that. He'll be gone the whole week end. God, ya know I should've taken my meds today. My mind keeps racing. Everything's going so fast. What if I miss something? I don't want to have this any more. I don't like this feeling. It's Wyatt's birthday tommorrow. What should I get him?
Lady God!va · Sat May 28, 2005 @ 06:50am · 4 Comments |
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So, Erik is officially grounded. For the rest of the simester and thats 3 weeks. He's also got summer school. And I think he'll still be grounded then. He can't talk on the phone. He can't hang out with anyone. The only time I get to see him is at lunch and during passing periods.
And it's all my falt. gonk Back into the blackhole.
Blackhole: "Long time no see!" Me: "I know, and I thought I'd gotten a restraining order on you." Blackhole: "Well, you thought wrong," Me: "I know... Don't remind me."
(New picture: )
Lady God!va · Mon May 23, 2005 @ 03:12am · 4 Comments |
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When is it going to stop raining? It's getting depressing. I want it to be the perfect weather we had last week, like on... Wednesday. Yeah that's it.
******** it all, can we smoke now? surprised heart
Lady God!va · Fri May 20, 2005 @ 01:37am · 0 Comments |
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