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My whole love life just sucks...and I mean it just plain sucks. Well...at least I'm keeping my mind off the guy I like. Even if only for a week. I just hope I can get over him soon. And yes...I'm only thinking of one guy who isn't ready for a relationship. I always found myself thinking of him even if I knew it wouldn't work out. Why am I like this now??? What about him can I not stop thinking about? What about him do I even like? I just want to know because its not fair. But whenever I see him...I always get butterflies in my stomach. I want to always be there for him to be a guiding voice but how can I whenever we speak I'm lost for words?! I hate myself for feeling this way. Its not fair to both of us. I don't want this feeling to continue getting stronger. I've been told to not give up on him but it seems like it would be the only way to get out of my depression. I need advice from someone else because I can't follow my own. So if anyone has advice about this, please pm me before this week is over. I am in texas and not at home.