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Ok, so heres the lay down. I need to vent because my best friends are involved in this, basicly all of them. I'm sort of in this relationship with a guy, and he's involved with more than one girl. He has to make a descision soon, as to who he keeps and who he drops. All I feel is that I'm second best to him, thats all I ever was and thats all I'll ever be. It makes me feel like crap and I know I deserve better than that. I guess I'm just afraid to leave on one side, because I've never had better, and what if I'm wrong, what if I dont deserve better? Than I've just screwed myself over. But on the other side, my ex is someone I've been in contact with lately. He's changed somewhat, but still the same person, you know? Granted I haven't talk to him that much, but I get the feeling he wants to date again. The scary/sad thing is, I know that what I want, I could kind of get from him. Granted every highschool guy is afraid of the dreaded "C" word.(Comitement) But he makes me feel like royaltie. That I'm a wonderfull person and deserve everything, knowing when I'm happy, and when I'm sad. Not resting untill I'm the Destiny he knows and loves. He makes me feel so good inside, and I know that I'm his one and only. Thats what I want. To feel loved, not to be second best, to be someones one and only, point, case, and close. But with me wanting to go away to college, I want to be able to leave knowing that my man will stick to me, and stick true. Thats what I have to worry about. I dont know what to do anymore. Has anyone out there got any advise to me? After reading me complain, if your even still there anymore.
Tiny_rel · Mon Oct 31, 2005 @ 02:57pm · 1 Comments |
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